So somehow when my dr told me to take two days off a week of my workouts my brain translated that into half-ass your cardio when you actually do it and eat a lot of cookies and white wine. No joke. That sentence pretty much sums up my whole week. I kid you not. I just ate cookies (and a handful of peanut butter M&Ms) for breakfast.
You may be asking why we had this type of cookies in our house and I will tell you – because we went to a friend’s house last night and had an awesome time with some of my favorite people but since I was the DD and didn’t get to have as much fun (but still had a ton of fun) as everyone else I decided cookies and M&Ms from the Plaid Pantry at midnight would be my reward. Who am I?
Out. Of. Control.
It’s definitely hard to not work out like I normally do. And even though the direction was to just take two days off of working out it’s hard to justify doing the rest of my workouts 100%. I mean, this whole thing makes me question my typical sweat sessions – could they have really been the reason we couldn’t get preggo? Does running really shorten my cycle? Honestly, I don’t think so. It’s hormones and plumbing issues and I actually think I’ve used this “diagnosis” as a chance to slack off for a week. Not saying my workouts (on the days that I am allowed to do them) will ever go back to 100% of my normal effort but there is no excuse to eat the way I have been. But let’s be honest, those cookies sure were delicious :)
Also delicious were the gorgeous gerber daisies I came home to on Monday. Chris is on sabbatical right now and boy, do I sure do love having a house husband :)
And speaking of Chris, we got to celebrate his birthday twice this week. Dinner with the big group on Wednesday and dinner with another couple on Thursday. I think both Chris and I had some kind of rough birthdays this year. Each of us had some different ideas of what life would be like when we were 31 and 36 but as we closed out his bday Thursday night (at Journey’s of course) we both realized how good we have it. We are both so thankful for each other and this amazing life we have.
[Sidenote - you must download the BeautifulMess iphone ap. Who knew adding text to your photos could be so fun.]
And speaking of other things I’m thankful for (see those transitions? amazing) I had my drs appointment yesterday to check to see how my body responded to clomid and we got good news. It worked exactly like it was supposed to! Besides some cramping and maybe a little nausea I didn’t have any side effects and I have 3 excellent looking follicles (which is what houses the eggs). Tonight I give myself a shot of Ovidrel (I actually want to throw up just thinking about this) which will make me ovulate and then Monday morning at 11 we go in for the IUI where hopefully one of those eggs will meet up with some swimmers (I feel like it’s weird to say sperm on my blog). I’m trying not to think about the enormity of all this and just trying to treat everything like normal. For so long I got excited about being pregnant and then crashed every month when I wasn’t so I started not even getting my hopes up – telling myself I wasn’t preggo and not to expect it. And now with this, when we actually have a chance at something happening (only a 20% chance by the way) it’s so hard not to get excited and think about the future but I also don’t want to deal with being sad if it doesn’t work. The hardest part in all of this is going to be the 12-14 days between the IUI and when I’m suppose to get my period. Ug. That waiting sucks!
Thank goodness I have my upcoming vacation to take my mind off things.
Wednesday morning we leave for Nashville!! I am so freaking excited. Total bucketlist vacation. We will hit up the following places:
Chapel Hill, NC
If you have any favorites (restaurants, places to see, things to do) in any of these spots or little towns in between them let me know. Also if you have any advice for how to pack for 16 days in a backpack which will also need to fit a pair of cowboy boots let me know. That is my mission this weekend. Going to be a tough one.
And that is all I have for you. I’d like to think I’m going to go get on the spin bike and ride for 30 minutes before we head to the beach but that’s doubtful. Maybe tomorrow.
Hope everyone has a fantastic Memorial Day Weekend!