We watch Glee music videos and sing and dance. (Sometimes we mix it up with Macklemore. He loves the official "Can't Hold Us" video- particularly the beginning, because there is a plane in it.)
I've been finding the voice that I think I once had, the one that belts out songs, because I love it and because Nolan smiles the best kind of smile when I do.
Today, as we were watching side by side and I was singing, he wrapped his little arm around my neck and pulled me closer, beaming.
He is tearing down all kinds of insecurities in me. I can't throw or catch, but he hands me a basketball or a baseball and insists it's my turn. I'm learning to throw. I'm learning to try again because what I tell him to do.
I'm confident I'm going to learn all kinds of things I previously said I'm not good at in this life as Nolan's mama.