As I begin, I’m going to be very honest in this post and discuss how my approach to Insanity has changed since my Increasing Calories post. When I wrote that post, I was overwhelmed. With what? Hmm. Anxiety. Anger towards the Insanity program. Confusion. And all of your positive and encouraging responses was exactly what I needed to snap out of it and sit down to really think about what I need. Here is what I’ve done/realized since then.
I decided I needed to stop. I needed a break. I was 4 days into the Recovery Week and took the following 3 days off. Yes, I broke the Insanity calendar. (The Recovery Week takes place between Month 1 and Month 2 of Insanity).
Over the weekend , I listened to my stomach and not the clock when it came to eating. It.was.wonderful. I ate when I was hungry. And if my stomach was still growling, guess what? I ate more.
And guess what else? After the four days off of Insanity and the intuitive eating, I lost those 2 pounds I was so hung up about.
It may not seem I’ve accomplished much, but I feel these are big steps for me.
Here is an example. On Sunday we went to a friend’s house to watch football. For lunch we had stromboli . I ate two pieces of the stromboli and then kinda sat back for a bit. After about ten minutes or so I realized that my stomach was growling. I was no where near full. My friend had brought out dessert at this point. And you know what? I ate two chocolate chip cookies. Sure, not the healthiest choice but I was still hungry and I ate. That’s an accomplishment.
Later that night, I still full from lunch. I glanced at the clock and noticed it was 6:30- my scheduled eating time. As the panic started to set in, I completely pushed it away. I simply was not hungry yet. Turns out when I listen to my hunger cues, I’m not really hungry at all! I ended up eating dinner around 8:00 when my stomach actually wanted me to.
Now for Insanity…
When it comes to weight loss, disordered thinking, disordered eating, etc I truly believe that most of it is mental rather than physical. I have found that when I’m happy in my mind then my body naturally finds it’s comfort weight. When I made that decision to forego the rest of the Recovery Week, combined with the decision to listen to hunger cues, it was like a weight was lifted off of me. And there those 2 pounds went.
With this being said, I don’t know if I’m going to continue Insanity into Month 2. I started it. But because I wanted to. Not because I had to. When something becomes a chore, I’ve realized I need to walk away from it. It was becoming too overwhelming and I was so focused on the weight.
My new approach will be to do it when I want. As of now, my gym membership is frozen until December, so going to classes is not an option yet. So when I get home from work, I’ll do Insanity if I feel up to it. If not, I’m not going to worry about it. At all. And I’m ok with that. In fact, I’m happy about it. And happiness is what’s important to me right now.
Be honest…what do you make of my Insanity decision?
What small accomplishments have you made lately that influence you in a big way?