I've been a bit of a mess lately. Maybe a big mess. I've tried analyzing myself top to bottom, inside and out, to fix the problem. I haven't withdrawn from my normal engagements, maybe I've added more. But nearly every time I've left wondering, "did I give the wrong impression? did they know that I really love them? that I love to spend time with them and hear their stories?" Because my spirit's just been...damp. (When I talk like that, keep in mind that I'm a yoga-practicing semi-hippie who believes in God and Jesus.)
Joy, one of the best things this life has to offer, has been missing in my life.
But I've been singing this song as well as I know how, and I'm getting some of it back:
Savior, please take my hand I work so hard, I live so fast This life begins, and then it ends And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last
I try to be so tough But I'm just not strong enough I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me I try to be good enough But I'm nothing without Your love Savior, please keep saving me
Savior, please help me stand I fall so hard, I fade so fast Will You begin right where I end And be the God of all I am because You're all I have
Hallelujah Everything You are to me Is everything I'll ever need And I am learning to believe That I don't have to prove a thing 'Cause You're the one who's saving me -by Josh Wilson, from the album Trying to Fit the Ocean in a Cup