Tomorrow is going to be hard. I am kind of dreading it in so many ways~ but as well I have to keep my head up and remember that everything happens for a reason (thank you Julie from " Wearing Mascara " for her post). I really hate to sound cryptic. But, tomorrow is a big step for me. A big step into reinventing myself or at minimum getting back to the real me.
Have you ever thought about something so much that it just makes your head spin? That is me right now. I have a tendency to make myself crazy that way. I need to keep focused and keep my eye on the prize so to say. The prize being me being happy. I think I am finally at a point where I might know what will do that. I even might know some things that I can do to obtain this happiness.
One major piece of this all is opening up and letting others in. I have a tendency to shut others out when I get stressed. The only child in me shuts down and goes into her turtle shell. I need to learn to trust others and lean on people. Slowly but surely I am starting to trust again and forgive. I know I need to re-develop some friendships. Those folks that I have not pushed away or have not allowed me to push them away are going to certainly be my starting base. It is amazing to know that through everything people are still there on the other side.
I do feel like I have been climbing a huge mountain and I may just be at the top. Only time will tell. This week has been a major eye opener for me, I finally think I might get it now.
Wish me luck. Even if you really don't even know what the heck I am talking about :)
Have you ever thought about something so much that it just makes your head spin? That is me right now. I have a tendency to make myself crazy that way. I need to keep focused and keep my eye on the prize so to say. The prize being me being happy. I think I am finally at a point where I might know what will do that. I even might know some things that I can do to obtain this happiness.
One major piece of this all is opening up and letting others in. I have a tendency to shut others out when I get stressed. The only child in me shuts down and goes into her turtle shell. I need to learn to trust others and lean on people. Slowly but surely I am starting to trust again and forgive. I know I need to re-develop some friendships. Those folks that I have not pushed away or have not allowed me to push them away are going to certainly be my starting base. It is amazing to know that through everything people are still there on the other side.
I do feel like I have been climbing a huge mountain and I may just be at the top. Only time will tell. This week has been a major eye opener for me, I finally think I might get it now.
Wish me luck. Even if you really don't even know what the heck I am talking about :)