Work was SO beyond crazy busy, we were short a person and the internet was going in and out. It was working my nerves all day long.
When I became single, I felt better because most of my girlfriends are single. But, I didn't really take into account that they have their own things going on and that they aren't always going to be free to fill my time. Today, is my first day off in a while. So, I really wanted to go out last night and just stay up late and not have to worry about it because I could sleep in today. I made a few calls and I went out to dinner with a friend from college who I haven't seen in two years. It was really nice to catch up especially since she just moved into my area. But, after dinner we both headed home. I was in bed by 9:30. The exact OPPOSITE of how I wanted the night to go.
Yesterday, was a concert that D and I were supposed to go to with a bunch of friends in Philly. But yanno, since we broke up, I wasn't going anymore. It didn't bother me that I wasn't going because I honestly don't even like the band, it was just for D and a chance to catch up with friends. What bothered me, was that our mutual friends haven't said a word to me since D and I broke up. We're all friends on facebook and D and I even met them all at the same time. But, I guess since I'm the "dumper" and he's the "dumpee" that automatically makes me the bad one and sides have been taken. It's not even that I talk to them all of the time, but some form of communication would have been nice...just because I did the breaking up, doesn't mean that it isn't affecting me also.
Last night I was laying in bed and just so annoyed with everything. For a split second, I almost called D. Not that I missed him...just the idea of having someone that I can call 24/7 whenever I need to. I just felt like crying and complaining and then, I realized that it wouldn't be fair to him. Just because I'm feeling crappy, it's not fair to ruin his night by calling when he's probably just trying to forget about me.