2011. There were many high points. You saw them all on Monday’s post . And you saw my delicious eats of the year yesterday. Certainly.. the highest of points was getting engaged, followed by rescuing a dog. Words cannot even express how overwhelmingly happy I was when Justin proposed. After 2.5 years of dating and a year of living together, I knew we were ready. Hell, I would have never moved in with him if I didn’t see our relationship lasting forever.
But the reality of 2011 – wasn’t all rainbows in butterflies. Bluntly – it wasn’t one of my finest years. It was sprinkled with amazing times and laughter, but I would be lying if I didn’t tell you that 2011 was a tough year.
Early in 2011, I lost a great Aunt. It was a very difficult time for my family; especially my mother. She and my aunt had grown extremly close and my mother spent a majority of the the last 3 years commuting to and from NYC to ensure that my aunt had all of the help and love she needed. To say that this loss saddened our hearts is an understatement.
Late in 2011, I experienced a tragic loss in the community that still occupies and baffles my mind on a daily basis. My mind is great (sarcasm) at finding ways to remember (and shed a few tears) over this loss at least once a day. It seems as if this is a tragedy I cannot escape – and it is frustrating beyond belief. Frustrating because there is nothing I can do that will change the truth. Frustrating that such a thing could happen. I apologize for being so vague and not letting you in – but it is out of respect for all of those directly affected. I need to vent – and I think I’ve exhausted the ears of those around me.
This sadness has seemed to remain present in my daily life. While it in no means has sucked out all of the happiness in my life; it has made it tough. I am coping the best that I can and finding ways to alleviate negative feelings, but it has certainly placed a damper on 2011.
2011 has also been filled with odd health problems ; from fibroids to seemingly incurable IBS-C. I spend many afternoons in the doctor’s office only to leave with no more information than I had originally had. It left me with lots of anxiety, confusion, and frustration with regards to the things that were going on inside of my body. Thankfully, things have been on the upswing. But these stressors have also left their mark on 2011.
Am I a whiner? A complainer? I sure don’t believe so. But I am honest. And I can’t fathom putting a facade over the reality of 2011. Of course, I am not saying the year was a complete bust. But as I reflect upon the year as a whole, I have a heavy heart. I know I am only faced with circumstances that I can handle. And I do believe I have handled everything that was thrown at me in 2011. From here, we move forward. We move to 2012 with the hopes of nothing by happiness, love, laughter, and life. I am more than ready to say goodbye to 2011.
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Will the tick of a clock delete the past? Absolutely not. However, I can figuratively close the book of 2011 and open a brand new book – with pages yet to be written. I am ready to fill those pages – and ready to handle whatever it is that will cross my path in 2012.
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Are you looking forward to the start of a new year? Do you look at is as a new page.. a new day.. or just a continuation?
I normally look at the new year as a continuation. But I am really looking forward to a new year this year. We all have those years, right?
2011. There were many high points. You saw them all on Monday’s post . And you saw my delicious eats of the year yesterday. Certainly.. the highest of points was getting engaged, followed by rescuing a dog. Words cannot even express how overwhelmingly happy I was when Justin proposed. After 2.5 years of dating and a year of living together, I knew we were ready. Hell, I would have never moved in with him if I didn’t see our relationship lasting forever.
But the reality of 2011 – wasn’t all rainbows in butterflies. Bluntly – it wasn’t one of my finest years. It was sprinkled with amazing times and laughter, but I would be lying if I didn’t tell you that 2011 was a tough year.
Early in 2011, I lost a great Aunt. It was a very difficult time for my family; especially my mother. She and my aunt had grown extremly close and my mother spent a majority of the the last 3 years commuting to and from NYC to ensure that my aunt had all of the help and love she needed. To say that this loss saddened our hearts is an understatement.
Late in 2011, I experienced a tragic loss in the community that still occupies and baffles my mind on a daily basis. My mind is great (sarcasm) at finding ways to remember (and shed a few tears) over this loss at least once a day. It seems as if this is a tragedy I cannot escape – and it is frustrating beyond belief. Frustrating because there is nothing I can do that will change the truth. Frustrating that such a thing could happen. I apologize for being so vague and not letting you in – but it is out of respect for all of those directly affected. I need to vent – and I think I’ve exhausted the ears of those around me.
This sadness has seemed to remain present in my daily life. While it in no means has sucked out all of the happiness in my life; it has made it tough. I am coping the best that I can and finding ways to alleviate negative feelings, but it has certainly placed a damper on 2011.
2011 has also been filled with odd health problems ; from fibroids to seemingly incurable IBS-C. I spend many afternoons in the doctor’s office only to leave with no more information than I had originally had. It left me with lots of anxiety, confusion, and frustration with regards to the things that were going on inside of my body. Thankfully, things have been on the upswing. But these stressors have also left their mark on 2011.
Am I a whiner? A complainer? I sure don’t believe so. But I am honest. And I can’t fathom putting a facade over the reality of 2011. Of course, I am not saying the year was a complete bust. But as I reflect upon the year as a whole, I have a heavy heart. I know I am only faced with circumstances that I can handle. And I do believe I have handled everything that was thrown at me in 2011. From here, we move forward. We move to 2012 with the hopes of nothing by happiness, love, laughter, and life. I am more than ready to say goodbye to 2011.
SourceWill the tick of a clock delete the past? Absolutely not. However, I can figuratively close the book of 2011 and open a brand new book – with pages yet to be written. I am ready to fill those pages – and ready to handle whatever it is that will cross my path in 2012.
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Are you looking forward to the start of a new year? Do you look at is as a new page.. a new day.. or just a continuation?
I normally look at the new year as a continuation. But I am really looking forward to a new year this year. We all have those years, right?