Every now and then I go through a phase where I just don’t care about much. I’ll stop worrying about my homework for a week or so, I won’t bother cleaning any more than I absolutely have to, and I’ll buy myself all kinds of stuff I don’t need. It’s like I take a break from life.
Right now, I’m in one of those phases and my timing couldn’t be worse. I have a stats midterm tomorrow and I’ve barely studied. I’ve tried (sort of), but I just can’t make myself care about it. Instead, I spent a good chunk of my weekend watching 80’s movies with an unopened text book on my lap. I like to call it studying through osmosis.
The rest of the time I’ve been too busy shopping, and eating my feelings to bother worrying about much else.
I went to the doctor about my knee on Saturday. He thinks I have something called exostosis, which is a painful but benign bone growth, and is sending me for x-rays. I asked if I could still run, and he basically told me that he knew I would either way, so just to be careful and I should be fine. So for now, it’s good(ish) news. We’ll know for sure when the x-rays are done.
I realize that at 27 I’m very lucky this is my first medical issue, but I’m still pretty frustrated about it (hence the feeling eating). I feel like it’s just another thing to add to my list of things to do, and I don’t feel like dealing with it (I will though).
Hopefully I can get myself in for an x-ray this week, and then maybe I’ll start caring about life again. Maybe.