Wow. Way for me to run away for two weeks. Well, now that I’m back, I have some good news to share. I’ve been doing really well staying on track and maintaining diet and exercise. Hm. When I just wrote “diet” I wanted to cross it out. Diet. I don’t want to look at it that way. It should be looked at as maintaining a healthy lifestyle with exercise and smart choices with eating. That’s much better!
I’ve been so proud of myself the last four days. I started a food journal and write down everything I eat and the Weight Watchers points. I’ve been measuring out food, whereas in the past I just would wing it. But more so, and what I really wanted to focus on today, is the choices I have been making.
In class, my students are doing their “how-to” presentations this week. This translates into most of my kids presenting on how to make delicious cookies and treats. For EVERY presentation this week I have turned down their sample. That was a HUGE accomplishment for me. I’m sure you know what it’s like. A delicious, homemade, cookie staring you right in the face. Or a brownie, made by my class mom who is the most amazing baker. Yea, I’m sure you’ve been there. God knows I have, and I can say just about EVERY time, or yea, EVERY time, my answer was, absolutely I’ll have one. Or seven. I thought I would never have that willpower, but I said no every time this week. Furthermore, today was one of my students’ birthdays. He came in with Dunkin Donuts, of course. And I start to hear the little devilish voices in my head. What’s the big deal if you just have one? But I talked some sense into myself and again politely declined. I was so proud. I know I keep saying that, but I really was. That is until…dinner.
My friend asked me to go out to eat. This made me a little nervous but I looked up the menu online, found something I liked, looked up the nutritional information, and calculated the points. Well, when I ordered, the waitress said the dreaded, “That comes with fries.” I did not expect that at all, nor did I calculate it into my plan. There is a positive and negative to the rest of this story (the negative being much much worse though haha). The positive is that honestly the FIRST thing that popped in my head was to just tell her not to include them. And I really was about to say it. But then she started with all these options, and Im not exaggerating here. “Well, you can have fries, or onion rings, or fries AND onion rings, or a baked potato…” I just wanted her to stop because by now I’m drooling and managed to say, “Just bring the fries,” when really at that point I wanted to say, “Yes please, all of the above!” So, I ate the fries. And I hated myself for it. But, looking back, I should really still be proud of everything I turned down this week because I made some really good choices. Additionally, everyday this week I’ve eaten under my allotted 20 points, so I had room to mess around with without actually going over. So, moral of the story for me is that I feel so great when I make good choices, so much better than the way it feels to eat some fries. I hope that I can continue to keep it up!