I put on my bikini today, for the first time this year and…….
I looked good.
Some people are going to think, “bitch”, some will think, “show us!” (and I totally would but it would just be a picture of Miranda Kerr wearing it and I am 200 % sure I’m not Miranda Kerr) and some may think, “well, good for you. Keep up the hard work.”
I should backpedal on that “I looked good” part. I felt good. And I do not have a perfect body, by any means. But it got me to thinking about change.
What we want to change, for the most part, are things we cannot change without drastic, unrealistic, or expensive measures.
I cannot change the natural structure of my body, but I can change the way it looks and feels with exercise and diet.
I cannot change the way my nose looks, or the way my chest is too flat without $15,000 in my pocket to burn, so forget that.
I cannot change the way my body feels after late night eating and too much drinking, so I tend to avoid it and I’m sorry if you feel that I am not awesome because I can’t drink every week.
I cannot change the fact that the majority of women will have cellulite on their legs, but dammit, I am 21 & don’t have it yet so I will always fight the good fight.
I cannot change the field I’m passionate about, even though jobs are scarce, so I’m going to stay true to myself & not settle for an unhappy life with a career I’m not passionate about.
I can’t change the way my personality is slightly awkward and flighty at times, but I’m a smart girl and I am able to laugh at myself.
I don’t know why, but I can’t change the fact that even a scrape will scar my skin, and I admit I ABSOLUTELY HATE THIS and have resorted to wearing cover up on my legs………
I can change my attitude about my “shortcomings.”
I can change my geography.
With hard work, I can have $15 grand to burn, but I can guarantee it won’t be spent on plastic surgery, because I don’t want my body to be fragile and fake. That money could buy a lot of Apple products! And no, I cannot change the fact that I am in love with a company and even baked cupcakes to celebrate a new phone. I am a geek.
I can change my body’s aging destiny by keeping it fit and flexible for life.
I can change what kind of fuel I put into my body, and for the most part, I have.
And you know what the absolute best part of this is? You can change it too, if you want to.
I don’t know if I’m sounding a little too preachy or serious, but I feel like this needs to be said, because pretty much all my life I focused on the things that I cannot change and it ruined the good things about me.
This post was easy to write, but difficult to hit ‘Publish’. As of right now, I’ve had this up for about an hour and I’m still not sure whether to publish this now. I’m still trying to break into the blogging word, and I don’t want people to think I’m all preachy. I think I had to write it for myself, to have it in words that I don’t have to be perfect to be perfect.
So if you’re reading this, I took a leap & hope that there are people out there who can relate to this!
But in all honesty, I want to thank everyone who takes time to read my blog. It’s becoming a passion of mine and I love to share my thoughts, recipes, and life with you. And in all honesty, I had an Almond Butter/Apple Butter/Banana Bagelwich this morning