I’ve tried, but I just can’t seem to care about Christmas. The last couple years I’ve been very anti-Christmas mainly because I’m trying to pay for school and life, and it gets in the way of that. But this year I’m somehow doing a little better financially, and I still just don’t care.
The only Christmas item that’s even entered my house this year is a dog toy.
And I only bought that because it cost four dollars. I shouldn’t even admit to how much I’ve enjoyed watching Lexie rip it apart. There actually may be something wrong with me.
I’ve gone shopping, and even wrapped some gifts, but I haven’t done any of it with anything that even resembles Christmas spirit. I’m going through the motions and paying no attention to any of it.
I did try and improve my attitude by watching every single Christmas movie that’s on tv right now, but those did no good. Eventually I gave up on that plan and just started watching Mad Men all day long.
Then when it snowed, I complained all day long.
When it snowed even more, I just complained more.
Watching Lexie play in it helps a little, but I’m still not impressed.
I used to be a giant, annoying, Christmas nerd, but I’m just not anymore. No matter how hard I try, I just can’t seem to care this year. Christmas has become one of those things I do because I have to. I buy gifts because that’s a part of it. I make cookies because that’s a part of it, but none of it has the warm fuzzy feeling that it used to.
I’m just ready for the season to be over so I can stop pretending like it’s a big deal and get back to life already.