Hello! I feel the need to post right now because I am stressed out about something and need your advice! As you all know, I am going to be in the January issue of Shape. I had no idea if they were going to mention my blog or not. Obviously, I want them to because it will be amazing exposure. I would love more readers! My only issue is that my parents and sister still have no clue about the blog! Today I found out that the blog
will be mentioned. I am super excited on one hand but am extremely stressed too! You probably think I am crazy but keep reading...
The main reason they do not know about the blog is because of the boy. My parents absolutely hate him. My sister has no clue I am still with him! I can't imagine her reading all of this and thinking I kept this from her the whole time. The 2nd reason is I feel like I would not be as honest as I am if I knew they were reading this. I am close with them but do not talk to them about half of the things I mention on here (binging, food issues, etc). I just can't imagine them reading some of my posts.
I'm not as worried about the 2nd issue as I am about the whole boyfriend thing. I think I can deal with my parents reading that I ate too much at night and lost control. I don't think I can handle them knowing how much time the boy and I have spent together in the last year. I can't express how psycho they get when they bring him up. It is constant screaming back and forth, me hysterically crying till I can't breathe, hanging up on each other, and just very hurtful comments back and forth.
My parents are the type that would find out about the blog and read
EVERY post and criticize me about everything. Don't get me wrong; they would be really proud of me if they read some of the posts. My mom bugs me all of the time because she thinks I have no hobby. I just don't want to deal with them reading about the boy! They haven't brought him up in a while and I like it better that way. They know we still talk. They get my phone bill. I think they just gave up for a while.
What do I do??? 1) I could go back through all 400 of my posts and take his name out of there. It is hard because so many posts revolve around what we did together!
2) I could change "the boy" to some one's name. Then they would think I did all of this stuff with a friend.
3) I could just delete the entire posts he is in but I would rather not do that since a lot of them involve product and restaurant reviews.
4) I could stop mentioning him from now on but leave previous posts about him. This is very risky and stresses me out.
I am leaning towards the 2nd option. This might take forever but I can't stomach them knowing he stays here. I also can't imagine my aunts and cousins reading about him. Family dinners will be hell! I will get the 3rd degree!
This whole situation stresses me out pretty much every day. I hate hiding my life from my family. It makes me want to end it with him sometimes since they would disown me if we ever got married but it is hard since we obviously get along great and always have fun together. They don't know half the stuff he does for me. So for now we will be together and I need to figure out how to deal with this. What to do about the blog!?
Help please!
The main reason they do not know about the blog is because of the boy. My parents absolutely hate him. My sister has no clue I am still with him! I can't imagine her reading all of this and thinking I kept this from her the whole time. The 2nd reason is I feel like I would not be as honest as I am if I knew they were reading this. I am close with them but do not talk to them about half of the things I mention on here (binging, food issues, etc). I just can't imagine them reading some of my posts.
I'm not as worried about the 2nd issue as I am about the whole boyfriend thing. I think I can deal with my parents reading that I ate too much at night and lost control. I don't think I can handle them knowing how much time the boy and I have spent together in the last year. I can't express how psycho they get when they bring him up. It is constant screaming back and forth, me hysterically crying till I can't breathe, hanging up on each other, and just very hurtful comments back and forth.
My parents are the type that would find out about the blog and read EVERY post and criticize me about everything. Don't get me wrong; they would be really proud of me if they read some of the posts. My mom bugs me all of the time because she thinks I have no hobby. I just don't want to deal with them reading about the boy! They haven't brought him up in a while and I like it better that way. They know we still talk. They get my phone bill. I think they just gave up for a while.
What do I do???
1) I could go back through all 400 of my posts and take his name out of there. It is hard because so many posts revolve around what we did together!
2) I could change "the boy" to some one's name. Then they would think I did all of this stuff with a friend.
3) I could just delete the entire posts he is in but I would rather not do that since a lot of them involve product and restaurant reviews.
4) I could stop mentioning him from now on but leave previous posts about him. This is very risky and stresses me out.
I am leaning towards the 2nd option. This might take forever but I can't stomach them knowing he stays here. I also can't imagine my aunts and cousins reading about him. Family dinners will be hell! I will get the 3rd degree!
This whole situation stresses me out pretty much every day. I hate hiding my life from my family. It makes me want to end it with him sometimes since they would disown me if we ever got married but it is hard since we obviously get along great and always have fun together. They don't know half the stuff he does for me. So for now we will be together and I need to figure out how to deal with this. What to do about the blog!?
Help please!