I feel like all I’ve been posting about lately is how nothing exciting is going on and I don’t have anything to write about. But that’s a big fat lie. The truth is, lots of stuff has been going on, I’m just not really ready to write about it. So instead I’ve hidden from my blog and kind of just kept to myself.
I don’t like it.
I like writing about my life, and putting everything out there because I feel like it helps alleviate my crazy.
Since there’s a lot of stuff right now, I’m just going to pick one topic. The one that may be making me the craziest.
I can’t run right now.
Like, at all.
Something’s up with my knee, it’s been bugging me for months and it’s not really getting any better.
I’ve iced it, I’ve rested, it’s gotten better, and then I’ve tried running. A week and a half ago I ran an entirely flat 5k and I thought I was ok. Actually, I was ok. I mean, it was rough, I hadn’t run at all for a month, and that was pretty clear. But my knee felt good.
My legs on the other hand, didn’t fare so well. I was so sore I even resorted to an ice bath. It was not a good time.
But even after the ice bath, and the rest, there’s a weird lump on my knee and it’s not going away. It doesn’t hurt all the time, only when I bend it. So basically I’m not going to risk running on it until I’ve seen a doctor (hopefully this week).
In the past two months, I’ve run twice. With all the school and life stress, I need a way to unwind. I feel like I’ve lost my outlet and I have no idea what to do with myself.
So that’s where we are right now. I need to find some spare time to get myself to the doctor, and in the meantime I need to figure out a way to keep myself from going crazy. So far, I’m not doing too well.