I haven’t always been like this. About seven years ago I was creeping toward the 280-pound mark which is only spitting distance from 300. At least I think so. I vaguely remember seeing 270-something on the scale once and everything gets real foggy after that. I picked up running and lost about 30 pounds doing that for six years and countless road races, including one full marathon. I dropped to 250 and didn’t budge.
Since I started running to lose weight, this was extremely frustrating. I had to make a change. I started CrossFit on November 1, 2012. I started the Paleo lifestyle the following March. After a full year at CrossFit and only nine months on Paleo, I dropped over 50 pounds and five sizes. That’s the nutshell. It’s like, a pistachio shell. The long version is SO long. I would tell you about the terrified fat girl walking into a CrossFit box alone and wondering which one of these skinny bitches was going to laugh at her first. I would tell you about the worst workout I ever did, how that day I almost cried, barfed and quit and how I had never felt so ashamed of myself in all my life. I would tell you how miserable I was when I couldn’t eat the things I wanted to, how I got made fun of at the office because everyone thought I was being suckered by another fad.
I would also tell you about the first time someone noticed I was losing weight. I would tell you about my first pair of size 16s. Then 14s. 12s. I would tell you about my first shopping trip where I could try on anything I wanted and I have never been able to do that before, and the first time I noticed I had hip bones, and how my boobs are finally looking straight ahead instead of at the floor! And I can tell you now, how it feels to have the number “1” in front of my weight for the first time in my whole adult life.
Did I mention that I couldn’t really cook before, and I had to get my EXTREMELY picky husband on board?
I can never go back to how things were. I can’t NOT follow Paleo. Know what I don’t have time for? BEING FAT. I owe my life to the people who encouraged me to keep up my hard work. I hope, one day, I can be that someone for someone else. It is possible. You can do it. With good, old-fashioned hard work and resolve, you can have whatever you want, too. That’s what my coach said to me. When I asked him, “Have you ever seen someone like me get thin?” He responded; “I have seen people do amazing things. There’s no reason you can’t have everything you want.” And he told me exactly how. He said “Just keep walking through the door.”
See that? You have to go. You have to make time. You have to make the effort. So now you might be asking me, “So how do I fit it all in?” Honestly? I have no idea. You just DO. You have to force it for a little while. Then? You’ll start getting the results you want, you’ll feel awake and perky at 2 PM without a coffee or a Red Bull, and you’ll want to keep it up nothing will stop you. Nothing can stop you from taking an hour for yourself to go running or work out. Nothing can take the place of your couple-hours food prep time. It just becomes part of your life. It becomes part of your stuff.
Before CrossFit & Paleo and after :-)
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Thanks for an awesome guest post KB! And thanks to you all for reading it.