I know I have been talking about gaining weight a whole lot lately…and it’s because I need to. The pounds are really and truly back on my body and I am taking notice. Truthfully, it is bothering me. Despite making a goal to stop those terrible body checks, I continue to reach and grab at the bit of “extra” that I now have… I feel incredibly compelled to keep “making sure” it is not too much fat, muscle, skin, whatever, and that I am satill able to tolerate what is there.
The rational and irrational sides of my brain are certainly bumping heads on this matter. I know a huge piece of this that scares the hell of out of me is that while I am attempting to gain more weight as it’s healthy to, I am simultaneously trying to lose the weight. Hmm these seem just a bit contradicting don’t you think? However, by logically understanding the reasons and necessities behind the weight gain- that I am providing a chance for myself to simply get better, well the process becomes more tolerable. And then that rather important fact that I am finally living a life where I don’t hate the world and myself constantly.
If you have read my ramblings to this point, thank you… sometimes I can’t believe the tangents I can go on when I start talking about all of this.
I truly hope that everyone had an enjoyable weekend whatever that entailed for yoursleves
Please tell me what you did!
Also, did you see any movies this weekend? Any recommendations? I am always looking for new and worthwhile flicks!
How do you feel the need to distract yourself like I do sometimes? Or have trouble with really simple, normal activities such as sitting down and watching a movie/TV?! If you think I am nuts, don’t answer this question haha.
Do you sometimes just need to dance!?
Enjoy the rest of your day!