This is going to be a little raw and a lot honest.
One of my biggest fears is: gaining back the weight that I lost. I always hear people say (and I've said it myself): "Losing the weight is only a small part of the battle. Keeping the weight off? Now that's the hard part!" And, guys, that really scares me! You can check out more of My Story here.
It’s not really about the weight itself, though. It has everything to do with the feelings and emotions that accompanied that weight. When I was at my highest weight, I was also at a breaking point of sorts in my life. I was depressed, tired (all-the-time), unhealthy, and most of all unhappy.
I had two choices: continue on the path of dissatisfaction, or get off my butt and do something about it! Point blank. I chose the latter and—little did I know at the time—all the amazing benefits that came along with it!
Not only was my period of depression unfair to my son and my family, but it was also unfair to me. I was depriving myself of so much of what life has to offer. I chose to sleep away my days and in turn missed out on a lot of life.
I would like to say I’ve turned a new leaf and I’ll never look back. But that would be a mistake. Looking back and reflecting on the times in which you were unhappy allows you to push forward and pursue what makes you happy. Knowing what you don’t want to do makes it that much easier to find out what you do want to do.
While I try to live “in-the-moment.” I also take times like this to reflect and to improve. As a psychology major, I can tell you that the single best predictor of future behavior, is past behavior. This is why I’m so scared to fall back into that behavior that made me unhappy.
So why is fear so interesting? It's a two-sided beast. On one hand, you want to minimize and avoid your fears. But on the other hand, you want to face those fears so you can prevent yourself from giving in to them.
Face you fears. Reflect on them. Make them your b*tch and never give in. :)
It’s been nearly 2 years (and counting) since I found and pursued My New Healthy. I LOVE my life right now. I love the woman I'm becoming, and I determined to stay that way.
My sources of happiness: in the form of people (& animals), not food ;)
Seriousness over. I'll be back later with my usual shenanigans! :)
What is something you are fearful of? It doesn't have to be as emotional and exposed as my fear. It could be as simple as: I fear spiders! ;)
Or alternatively, just to get off the fear topic, what is something that makes you happy?