“Our truest life is when we are in dreams awake.” – Henry David Thoreau
My unconscious dreams
I mostly dream about normal things. You know: hiding from Zombies in underground layers; trying to outrun tornados to save my family; and dunking Oreos in milk. Typical, right?
Well, a recent dream turned out to be not so typical. And I didn’t like it.
I’m at Chang’s Mongolian Grill with a friend, Brittany. Before ending up at Chang’s I tried to get Brittany to go to the Black Bear Dinner with me so we could eat ungodly amounts of fried American food and dip it all in blue cheese dressing (together – because we’d both kill to do that right now). However, after a few unfortunate events such as our baby-blue antique, convertible breaking down, and getting stuck in a room with a bunch of old youth group members, we were unable to go. The universe was clearly working against us.
So anyway we’re at Chang’s. We’re sitting at a long narrow table with two random guys we’ve never seen before. I got up to replenish my plate with more vegetables. The guys gave me this look. I know the look well. It’s the you’re-too-fat-for-more-food look. I begged, “But I’m fat because I have Hashimoto’s disease and I’m hypo-thyroid, plus it’s just vegetables.”
And that was it. Psychologically speaking I’d say this is my unconscious telling me I feel like I can’t eat anything good, I eat everything I should, and I am still weighty. Oh and I feel like I am being judged. L My unconscious is mean to bring up these feelings.
My conscious dreams
I used to dream about things like being thin, making a million dollars off of my top selling thriller and traveling to far-off ancient ruins to explore lost civilizations.
Ok, so I won’t lie. I still do dream about those things. Sometimes.
But these days I tend to keep my dreams and goals a little more realistic: weeding my back yard, getting my health under control, paying off school loans and starting a family (not that Maddie is not my baby, because she totally is. I just want one a little less hairy).
Thoughts about dreams/goals
I think it was Sri Swami Satchidananda who translated one of the Yoga Sutra’s to say something along the lines of: We suffer because we are not content with our current situation. In other words we’re not present. We’re always dreaming/thinking up the next bigger and better thing for our lives.
I came across this passage during one of my quiet times this week: “But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus” (Phil. 3:13-14).
In this case, the Apostle Paul is talking about having one goal, Jesus Christ and reigning with Him in Heaven.
Tying it all together
Is there a balance between the Sutra’s “being present at all times” and Paul’s “ultimate goal of Christ”? I think there is.
This past week, when I found myself being frustrated and impatient with one of my realistic goals, I stopped, grounded myself and meditated on my ultimate goal: Christ. Believe it or not, I became much more open to many realistic possibilities to help make my dreams become a reality.
Good yoga poses to contemplate dreams/goals: Siramba Srisasana (supported headstand) or Parsvritta Paddotonasana (wide-legged standing forward bend), to bring some blood to your head and help you think; and Triangle Pose (Trikonasana) to open your chest and look to heaven.
Do you have weird unconscious dreams? Are you feeling frustrated about some dreams/goals that are taking too long to come into fruition? How do you deal?