2012 was one of those years for me. Big life changing, thrown into the eye of the hurricane not sure if I’m going to make it out alive kind of years. It’s like God forgot to send me big life lessons the last 29 years and looked at his master plan and thought, “Hey that Lindsey girl needs some crazy twists and turns in her life. 2012 seems a good a year as any. And well heck, I’m bored up here and need some excitement.”
In actuality what happened was I’ve had plenty of big life lessons sent my way over the years, but I just wasn’t listening.
Oops. My bad?
Instead of stopping and taking an honest look at my life I kept on plugging away at the things that I had deemed to be important.
My social status was more important.
Graduate school was more important.
The size of my jeans was more important.
My resume was more important.
Feeling smart, skinny, pretty, and popular was more important.
Being the perfect blogger was more important.
Attending fabulous cocktail parties was more important.
Staying up with the trends was more important.
Following “my” plan became more important – husband, house, 2.5 kids, white picket fence in suburbia.
Until one day all that came into question and I was left realizing that in fact ALL of that is not more important than what is truly in my heart.
If you don’t know what I’m talking about it then perhaps you’ve never had a gut check in life. Perhaps you’ve always been living authentically and have been perfectly happy with the life you’ve been given. It’s hard for me to fathom people who have never questioned the road they’re on since these kind of life questions are what Jesus, the Buddha, Krishna, and Muhammad tried to answer. It’s what religion is founded on. So it’s kind of a big deal.
So thank you 2012, you thoroughly kicked my ass in the best way. And for that I am eternally grateful.
PS – Can you please cut back on the life lessons in 2013? Thanks.