Have you ever woken up in the morning and wondered, “Is this really it? Is this all there is? Is this all that I am meant to be?”
I know I am not the only one to experience these questions, to wonder if there may be more to life than what I am experiencing right now. I know I am not the only one to wonder if I could be more than I am at this moment.
I spent years trying to make changes, only to find myself stalling out with distractions and excuses. Finally, I found myself fed up with the questions and the excuses.
I took a look into my past, searching for what had left me feeling happy, alive, and confident when I was younger. What I found was sports and fitness.
So I took that and ran with it. Quite literally. My goal, to play soccer again. You know on a real, live team.
I first hired a personal trainer to motivate me. Not only would I have someone pushing me once a week, but I knew that I would work out during the rest of the week just so I could show her improvement each time we met.
Then winter break came and I was on my own for 3 weeks. With the mild winter weather, I took up running.
I was shocked at my decision. For 36 years I swore that running was only worth my time if there was a ball to go after (or if I was running from zombies). But after 3 weeks, I finally found that runner’s high and I was hooked.
Before I knew it I was signing up for 5k’s and planning a 20K run for June. Then I signed up for more 5k’s, a 10K, an obstacle course race , and a fun run .
I loved the races, they kept me going. My competitive nature kept pushing me to run faster and farther. I picked out someone each race to pace with, and then race past before the finished line appeared.
Somewhere, in all the running, I found myself again . Friends would mention how much I was looking more and more like myself each day. Problems didn’t seem so big, and I could honestly say each and every day that I was proud of myself, that I liked myself.
This new perspective led to Dare 2 Dream Dare 2 Do , a very public expression of my journey. I hope that the stories and insights I share on my blog inspire others to find out who they might have been. I also hope that they will use fitness in that journey because its benefits are countless.
Now I crave a workout each day and have to remind myself to take a break. I now crossfit and began training for the HyVee 5150 triathlon next September. Of course, this journey has had its ups and downs , but I can’t imagine where I would be right now without finding my fit self.
I know that I no longer ask myself if this is all that I was meant to be. Each day I now see that in the mirror, knowing that tomorrow I will be even more.