"I've learned that I tend to be attracted to the 'unavailability' of men, and friends in general, for some reason or another. It feels like I am only comfortable in relationships in which I have to work hard. Trying and vying for someone's attention at all times."
Wow. I could seemingly type nearly that entire post here again.
Who am I to judge what lessons are in store for me?
" Remember how many times you thought you knew all the 'facts' you needed for judgment, and how wrong you were! Is there anyone who has not had this experience? Would you know how many times you merely thought you were right, without ever realizing you were wrong?
Wisdom is not judgment; it is the relinquishment of judgment. It is this: There is Someone with you Whose judgment is perfect. He does know all the facts; past, present, and to come. He does know all the effects of His judgment on everyone and everything involved in any way. And He is wholly fair to everyone, for there is no distortion in His perception." ~ A Course in Miracles
I am laying my judgment down... " not with regret but with a sigh of gratitude".
"Some of your greatest advances you have judged as failures, and some of your deepest retreats you have evaluated as success." ~A Course in Miracles