About an hour before the call I noticed a stabbing pain in my stomach. Twenty minutes before the call, my older son’s caregiver told me she wasn’t feeling well and asked to go home. At the precise time the call was scheduled to begin, my sister rang to ask when she could drop off my younger son. My thoughts drifted to the tower of projects perched on my desk. I asked myself, might it be better to reschedule (for the third time?)
The scenario above provides a perfect example of when my mind does it’s very best to distract me from doing my work. It really “thinks” it’s doing the right thing by throwing in the stomach pain or the phone call from the sister – anything to keep the decoy strategy alive.
The initial purpose for the call was to find the reason for my late night eating when I wasn’t hungry. I had ten extra pounds of suppressed emotions camping out on my hips and I was ready to find out why. All the little distractions that led up to the call were my mind’s way of avoiding the examination of some painful thoughts.
So, I climbed into bed, took a deep breath and made the call. The “Whys” were ready to surface.
I looked myself directly in the mind and answered my coach’s questions honestly, openly and without judgment. Bottom line, I was in attack and judgment mode and felt crappy. All the while I rubbed my stomach trying to ease the painful cramping.
Thirty minutes into the call I made a break through. I took a deep breath and laughed and in that moment noticed the stabbing pain in my stomach was completely gone. My body knew I was believing a lie and when I let go of the belief that anything had to be different than it was, my body relaxed and said thank you. When I’m in a state of loving what is, everything around me and in my mind is full of love.
What’s cool is that when I “fall out of love”, I have this reference to return to at any time. My body is there to gently (and sometimes not-so-gently) get my attention to let me know I’m believing a painful story that’s untrue.
Do you remember a time when you experienced physical pain that seemed to appear with no explanation? Do you recall what was happening in your life at that moment in time? What was your emotional state? Were you stressed, anxious, fearful, or sad? Can you recall if you wanted something to be different?
When your body starts to hurt in all kinds of interesting ways including pelvic pain, a migraine, back pain, Interstitial Cystitis, or IBS to name a few, it’s doing the very best it can to show you, teach you, let you know there’s a valuable message for you to discover. Start asking yourself questions to discover the truth. When you do, you’ll be delighted to find the pain dissipate and crawl back into the recesses of your body and wait to serve as a messenger when you get distracted. And maybe next time you’ll notice it just a little bit earlier until it only needs to be a whisper instead of loud, chronic pain.
If you’d like help with the questions, I’d love to support you through your discovery.
Cheers to 2011 and to listening to the wisdom of your body. It never lies.