Before my surgery I knew I was overweight.... ok, obese. But when I looked in the mirror I don't believe I truly saw how fat I really was. It's like my brain blocked the image or something.
Yesterday I was trying to organize the photos on my hard drive (they are a serious mess!) and came across this photo. It was taken 6 months before my surgery on Mother's Day after we'd taken my mom out to lunch. I obviously wasn't thrilled to be having my picture taken.
I'm sad to see this picture. And a little bit disgusted with myself for looking like this. That turquoise blouse is one I used to wear all the time, it was a favorite.
I guess seeing pictures of myself before surgery is a good reminder of how far I've come. And reminds me of the place I never want to return. I know that weight regain is a definite possibility after WLS if I do not make the necessary lifestyle changes to keep the weight off .... so I never want to forget how I looked and how I felt when I was obese. Even if these pictures make me disgusted, I'll continue to look at them to make sure I don't get lax with following the rules.