Hello there! I sit down tonight, for the first time in a while on the computer. I love it though. Not being attached to the desk, and just being present to focus on new and exciting projects has been wonderful.
The injuries from my accident seemed to have subsided (for the most part) until Saturday night. I went to the third week of yoga teacher training and after the Saturday session I was getting pain in my shoulder, down my arm, and numbness and tingling in my outer three fingers. Not good. Where my tingling was located is usually related to the lower neck. Weird because I’ve been able to practice no problem, except for some range of motion issues. It’s just annoying, but I keep reminding myself to be grateful for my body.
On Sunday Mike said “If you’re injured, don’t play. If you play, you’re not injured.” I really didn’t want to skip my class Sunday, but my shoulder was killing me. Walking 10 blocks with my bag then assisting other students and practicing probably would have exacerbated my condition. I went to the chiropractor on Monday and actually got a massage in the office after my treatment. Amazing. It really helped!
I haven’t worked out much aside from yoga and some light cardio. I’ve been going to 90 minute heated power class a few times a week at one of the studios affiliated with my school. Man, I thought the classes at my regular studio were hot. I didn’t know what hot was! I am able to ring out every article of clothing when I get home….and my hair..and my eyebrows and nose hair too. Pretty gross. But it feels so good.
I do hope to get some HIIT in soon though. The last one I did was this workout a few weeks ago!
Teacher training, like I said before is awesome yet terrifying. Going into it didn’t particularly think it would be easy. But I thought I’d have a leg up on “instructing” being a fitness professional. Well, not so much. Everyone says that it will start clicking in a few weeks…but I think in another 2-3 weeks we start doing a round robin where the teacher randomly calls on you to teach the entire class. Terrifying, like I said! Will I be remotely ready for that!? There are so many components to learn and it seems so overwhelming…but I am so excited about it all at the same time. I haven’t felt this passionate about learning and thriving at something since I started my PT business. Fabulous things to come. I hope.
Things I want to work on:
Aside from the obvious…like learning the sequence, learning it well, being able to teach it well (and not have an annoying yoga voice<—they want you to shout), here are some personal things I want to improve upon over the next few months:
Being present: this is an issue I have had for as long as I can remember. I can’t tell you how many big moments I look back on and feel like I “ruined” in a way for myself my being so concerned with what’s next or other people, or something, looking back was completely unimportant. I did it as a kid, as a teenager, and even worse as an adult. My wedding day was one of those days that I couldn’t just “be present.” I got advice from a friend which I (didn’t take) but pass along to anyone that is getting married: “Take a moment at the reception to step back away from the crowd and just be present. Look around and take everything in. Make a mental picture you can remember for always.” Well of course I was too worried about mundane things and pleasing everyone else to just be there and enjoy our big day. Other brides may resonate with that, I am sure I’m not alone. It made me an amazing MOH because I would have been damned if my best girlfriend and my cousin didn’t enjoy every second with no worries! This was something that when Ella was born I was conscious of and actually did live in the moment. I wasn’t going to allow myself to “ruin” that precious moment.
Forgive Myself: I am really hard on myself. And in a way it holds me back from accomplishing things I am perfectly capable of accomplishing. No one is perfect, not that I necessarily try to be. I have so many flaws and I need to either embrace them, or do something to improve and move on.
Confidence: Goes with the above. Confidence is something I have always struggled with. There are times I hold my head up high, but many times I am just scared and want to run in a corner and hide. Working to be the best that I can be, flaws and all, and knowing I gave it my best should allow me to take pride in myself and allow my spirit to shine.
Stop Holding Myself Back: There are a few projects I have lined up. Some are actually really great ideas, things that are much needed…but it’s a matter of me putting the time into finishing them all. If I can check the above off my list I think it should help me.
Let Go of Negativity: This was a problem when I was younger. I think it’s something I have actually come a very long way with. I am now very forgiving but would like to overall continue to work on negativity in general. Life is short. I am my own worst enemy sometimes. Negativity towards myself is especially something I need to let go of.
Managing my time better: I tell you, I have no idea where the day goes. Driving to clients, dropping Ella off to my moms, grocery shopping, yoga, gym, cooking, cleaning, showering, bathing, playtime, naptime, bedtime. I am one to not start something because I don’t think I have time to finish it. How do people much busier than me, with full-time jobs and multiple children so it all? I sometimes, well, often feel I waste a lot of time. Doing what, I don’t know? I’ll look back and say “what was I just doing this past hour?” “Where did the day just go?” Then other times I bang out 10 things and can’t believe how quickly I finished it all. The question is…am I being hard on myself for not getting enough done, or am I really poor at managing my time? I think both.
I loved this photo a friend shared on facebook:
Okay before I “waste” any more time at my computer, I have a sequence to go practice (now that the house is clean and Ella is finally asleep!) I hope everyone is well! I haven’t even been reading my favorite blogs lately.
In other news–Mike and I both got our new cars. Love them. Mike needed his because of the accident, and I have been wanting to trade my truck in because of the terrible gas mileage. I am in love with my new car. It’s a mid-sided SUV. It’s much more practical and so much better on gas. I drove it for the first time today and I am in love. I had this same car before I got the car I just traded in, and the updated 2013 version is pretty sweet.
Ella and I have been in the kitchen a lot, as per usual. I’ve been making tons of impromptu “true cook” recipes. I posted this on Instagram, but actually changed up the amounts for the spices. I also made these amazing pumpkin spice muffins for Ella that she loves. I need to re-test them because I wrote it all down after the fact.
These were of course adapted from the 2 ingredient pancakes that have been floating around the interwebs:
Serves: 1 Mommy & 1 Toddler….
There were some other things I wanted to talk about the next time I blogged but of course I can’t remember….(once I hit publish I probably will)