Yesterday was another very RARE day. I was scheduled off from work and the roads were still on the dangerous side due to the blizzard, so I didn’t leave the house for the 2nd day in a row .
In the morning I made breakfast real quick for Chris and I.
2 Organic Scrambled Eggs (taste WAY better than commercial)
Before he left, I got really emotional . . . I even started crying a bit. Partly because he was probably going to have to stay over night and I was scared for him driving. And partly because I was going to be alone and by myself all day.
Being alone and not being able to leave the house made me feel really uncomfortable . . . this is a feeling that I runaway from often by distracting myself with other things . . . Its happened before .
I thought about going to the bank, or going to my parents for the day . . . but then it hit me that this is EXACTLY what I have been wanting! I complain about NOT having time for myself to get things done and now I have an open opportunity without any commitments and I immediately want to squash it?
I don’t think so . . .
I decided to make a list of everything that I have been dying to do but haven’t had the time or energy.
I called it A Simple Kind Of Life because it’s a No Doubt song, and also because this personified the feeling I want when I walk into my home. I want to have just what I need and nothing extra. I want things to be clean and I want things to be organized.
I want to start out 2011 on an extra clean slate.
So I started out in my bedroom where clutter has been building for a while. I went through little papers and random things and threw out what I wasn’t using. I also went through my closet and drawers and came up with a bag of stuff to donate.
I then made my way into the bathroom where I did a quick clean of the sink, toilet and mirror. Its not my usual deep clean, but it worked for now.
I took a break for lunch and made a salad out of the few fresh ingredients we had left in the house.
Baked Tofu (I really am starting to dislike tofu – not going to buy it again)
Pomegranate Balsamic Vinegar
I then started purging old items from the refrigerator and pantry that were expiring or never going to get used. I HATE throwing away food I really have to be more conscious of what I buy at the grocery store.
I sat down on the couch a bit to watch Bethenny Getting Married? Did you know Bethenny is a graduate of ?
I started craving something sweet like crazy. I am really trying to focus on eating intuitively again so I wanted to make sure I didn’t deny myself what I really wanted. This turned into a cup of hot chocolate . . .
1 cup almond milk
2 tbsp Dutch processed unsweetened cocoa powder
AND a bowl of Berry Cap’n Crunch
I will not feel guilty. I will not feel guilty. I will not feel guilty.
After my small sugar crash I started slowly tying up some odds and ends. I ended up with 4 packed bag of garbage!!
For the rest of the night I sat on the couch and read a real live book!
I love reading books by Geneen Roth. I always feel a sense of calm and a sense of motivation after reading so many good lessons and this book had many of them!
Contrary to how I felt in the morning, I am so glad I stuck it out and hung out with myself. I feel more simple and I got a lot accomplished which will help me stay organized and happy . . . at least for a few days
Have you ever felt uncomfortable being alone? What do you do when you finally have time for yourself?