I am not trying to jinx myself here, but I wonder if I’m experiencing the reversal of the expression, “the calm before the storm.”
After months of “stormy” misery, struggling with chewing and spitting and midnight eating and then quitting those habits but still emotionally-eating, over-eating and making bad choices, I feel like I can see the horizon now.
Like I’m on the path somewhere, kind of that rejuvenation I felt in 2004 when I joined WW.
I don’t mean to toot my own horn here, but for the past four days I’ve felt incredible. No DE behaviors at all. I’ve been journaling, sticking to my Points (loving knowing I have so many WPAs left if I need them!) eating cleanly, exercising in moderation, getting plenty of sleep.
Honestly, there’s been no urge to over-eat, no urge to chew/spit. (I’m 10, almost 11 weeks “sober”!)
I don’t want to sound naïve and say with full certainty that my storm has passed and this is the calm (over-confidence about anything –work, school, love, friendships, weight loss– has always led to an immediate flop for me in the past) … so I’ve learned to always stay on my toes.
But maybe this is a lull? Whatever it is, I’m lovin’ it.
We’re hosting a BBQ this weekend for our friends, and I’m not anxious about it at all. I’m just looking forward to the company of our friends, and it will be a great time.
My hubby and I both love to entertain at home, and one of the benefits of being married and a home-owner now (versus when I was an apartment-dweller) is we have lots of fun entertaining stuff, plus we have the space for our guests.
I’m also excited because we bought a really nice fire pit and will be able to make S’mores! S’mores always make me think of camping with my family and being a Girl Scout, and they’re worth every bite.
I hope to carry this calm with me into the long weekend. Four days off work/blogging will be refreshing, but I’ll be back blogging on Tuesday.
Have a safe, happy and healthy holiday weekend, dear readers! And as always, thanks for your unyeilding support.