I think I have finally killed off all of my brain cells except for the ones that can focus on mindless television and video games. I have no attention span. My mind is a big gaping hole. My body, on the other hand feels fast, light, and energetic. I felt like I was flying on the trail at Maunawili Falls yesterday. I haven't been sleeping well. Less than 5 hours a night but there is nothing I can do. I spend my extra waking hours working on extremely productive mind-numbing tasks. I have the brain capacity for only the most menial tasks. At the time in my life when I should be at my most academically intelligent (4 years of college, 5 years of grad school) I am reverting back to about 4th grade processing level.
However, the island has done amazing things to my physical body. I can workout harder, run faster, and play more sports than I ever could before. I feel more fit than when I was 20. Other women always warned that the body starts breaking down and the weight gain is inevitable after reaching your mid-twenties. However, I weighed in at 119.6 pounds in February and am hovering at about 121-122 now. Pretty good for having had to cut down my exercise recently due to finals, box jellyfish, and apathy.
A woman with rockin forearms once revealed that she didn't start surfing until she was 30...I started bodyboarding at 29. After years of being afraid of the ocean, I immersed myself, let it throw me, blended with it and now we're cool.
I do want to get back to Aikido training. I miss it so much. I cannot wait to throw all the guys in a koshi-nage (a throw over the back). I'm never the strongest one and usually one of the smallest but I have some fluidity to my techniques and I work harder than almost anyone else, plus I have the best training partner.
I just hope that I will wake up one day soon and the weight will have lifted and I can start to look forward to something besides the inevitable ennui followed by a days worth of worry and dull pain.
However, the island has done amazing things to my physical body. I can workout harder, run faster, and play more sports than I ever could before. I feel more fit than when I was 20. Other women always warned that the body starts breaking down and the weight gain is inevitable after reaching your mid-twenties. However, I weighed in at 119.6 pounds in February and am hovering at about 121-122 now. Pretty good for having had to cut down my exercise recently due to finals, box jellyfish, and apathy.
A woman with rockin forearms once revealed that she didn't start surfing until she was 30...I started bodyboarding at 29. After years of being afraid of the ocean, I immersed myself, let it throw me, blended with it and now we're cool.
I do want to get back to Aikido training. I miss it so much. I cannot wait to throw all the guys in a koshi-nage (a throw over the back). I'm never the strongest one and usually one of the smallest but I have some fluidity to my techniques and I work harder than almost anyone else, plus I have the best training partner.
I just hope that I will wake up one day soon and the weight will have lifted and I can start to look forward to something besides the inevitable ennui followed by a days worth of worry and dull pain.