I’ve always had my midnight incidents, but I’ve never called them a real “binge” because I had never been truly out of control. I always weighed and measured, and never went beyond 5 pts.
But last night at 2 a.m., after going to bed happy and tired at 12:30 when my husband got home from class and we’d chatted, I woke suddenly at 2:22 a.m. and the monster hit. No clue why. I’d had a good day, a happy day (despite hearing that a family member — a second cousin — had passed away).
I am mortified to share this damage with you, but I’d be lying to myself if I didn’t share my stumbles as well as my successes.
After a 23 pt day with moderate exercise (a walk and then 2 activity points (APs) of cardio at the gym) I ate pretty much anything I hadn’t had that day and had thought about — all at once!
This is what I consumed, alone at 2:22 a.m. with no rhyme or reason.
1 piece of chocolate a friend gave me (so good) (1) 1/2 T PB/FF Reddi Whip (2) 1.5 servings ff/sf pudding (2) 3/4 c Kashi heart-to heart cereal (2) bites of apple sauce/ice cream (3) 1/2 cookie (2)
ALL sweets, all carbs. ALL AT ONCE. What was I thinking?!
My points reset today … embarassed as I am, I’m moving on. I just went back and counted APs for the week and I still would have had 3 APs to spare, so technically I didn’t go “over” or even off program, but I’ve been trying NOT to eat APs. I don’t lose when I eat them. It was basically a “maintenance” week points-wise … scale-wise, no clue.
My period comes next week, and I don’t know if this was related or not … I’ve never had an all-out binge.
And there’s a plus: I’m still 28 days chew-and-spit free … Gotta find the positive.
It was destined to happen.
I’ve always had my midnight incidents, but I’ve never called them a real “binge” because I had never been truly out of control. I always weighed and measured, and never went beyond 5 pts.
But last night at 2 a.m., after going to bed happy and tired at 12:30 when my husband got home from class and we’d chatted, I woke suddenly at 2:22 a.m. and the monster hit. No clue why. I’d had a good day, a happy day (despite hearing that a family member — a second cousin — had passed away).
I am mortified to share this damage with you, but I’d be lying to myself if I didn’t share my stumbles as well as my successes.
After a 23 pt day with moderate exercise (a walk and then 2 activity points (APs) of cardio at the gym) I ate pretty much anything I hadn’t had that day and had thought about — all at once!
This is what I consumed, alone at 2:22 a.m. with no rhyme or reason.
1 piece of chocolate a friend gave me (so good) (1)
1/2 T PB/FF Reddi Whip (2)
1.5 servings ff/sf pudding (2)
3/4 c Kashi heart-to heart cereal (2)
bites of apple sauce/ice cream (3)
1/2 cookie (2)
ALL sweets, all carbs.
ALL AT ONCE. What was I thinking?!
My points reset today … embarassed as I am, I’m moving on. I just went back and counted APs for the week and I still would have had 3 APs to spare, so technically I didn’t go “over” or even off program, but I’ve been trying NOT to eat APs. I don’t lose when I eat them. It was basically a “maintenance” week points-wise … scale-wise, no clue.
My period comes next week, and I don’t know if this was related or not … I’ve never had an all-out binge.
And there’s a plus: I’m still 28 days chew-and-spit free … Gotta find the positive.