As you know 1 month ago my pap came back saying that the high risk HPV was back, this time with no dysplasia luckily. It was shocking at first. Now one month later it’s gone!! My doctors are rather speechless. It was so fast. They say it usually takes about 3 months if it goes away at all .
I think the thing that so fascinates me about having had HPV and previously HPV with cervical dysplasia is that it’s the very first form of cancer. If you do nothing, you will develop cancer in 7-10 years. I had it at such an early stage I was able to just dial the clock back, to press rewind and go, oops, not going there thank you! It is the magic of this precise moment that fascinates me. This is the moment where it can either progress or regress and this is where within lies the answer to getting rid of disease and cancer. What can I learn from this? How can I pass this info on? This is why I have a blog and why I keep pressing forward in my self education or as my friend calls it my autodidacticism.
It’s like when you break up with someone or something in your life falls apart and you keep going back trying to find that exact moment that it all started to go wrong. Well, imagine being able to find that moment in health and study it. That exact moment you “got” cancer. I found that moment and I intend to study it.
There was always that part of me when dealing with this the first time, that wondered if it just went away by chance. Lots of doctors say that: “Sometimes it just goes away on it’s own”. That lead me to think, do I really need to be doing all this? Maybe it’s just coincidence and I could be eating bon bons and drinking martini’s. The fact that it came back and has since gone away again just proves that this is ENTIRELY in my control! Do you know who great that is?!!
We all know what I did last time which I blogged about in great detail here and if you are dealing with a diagnosis please read this first before posting questions below.
The big question is why did it come back?
Nobody seems to know the answer to this if I wasn’t re-exposed, which I wasn’t. It could be hiding in my system somewhere, nobody knows! Not my doctors, not research, not anyone. I have an idea though. Abandonment. I abandoned myself. I got too busy and stopped nurturing myself. I didn’t listen to my body. When I was tired I did not rest. When I was hungry I did not give myself good nutrients. I didn’t eat badly by any means. It’s not like I reverted back to In & Out and donuts. I started eating meek salads with nothing in them, gave up juicing and my green smoothies, stopped a lot of supplements, and stopped exercising. It’s easy to do when you’re busy. So once I realized this I snapped out of my pathetic state and took charge. Here is what I did.
First off, I did what I always do, I researched. You think I would have read everything on the subject last time but surprisingly I hadn’t! Three books were hugely influential in my process and I encourage you to read them all as they outline exactly how to reverse HPV, Dysplasia and Cervical Cancer naturally using alternative methods. Full protocols are laid out as well as treatment plans and herbal supplements. So please, do your research as I can not give advice to anyone but I can give you the tools to further your education. If you have been diagnosed with any of these please get these books. They will change everything about the way you approach this:
Second: I have less mercury than before, the fact that I still have quite a bit may explain why my system is still weak and it has come back but not as strongly as before.
I started taking DIM supplements (posted about this here ). DIM helps eat up harmful free estrogen that is wrecking havoc in the body. I took bio-response, 1 tablet a day.
I took Curcumin C3 Complex. One tablet a day. This is mentioned in Tori Hudson’s book. She goes into great detail about what to do to beat these conditions. Read the book!!!
Then I went to see my doctor - she’s amazing - she put me back on 5,000 milligrams of folic acid a day with B-12 (you must take with B12 otherwise you will get depleted) and then we tried a new experimental homeopathic anti-viral called Guna Tf Papiloma - Directions: one capsule per day for 5 consecutive days each week (for instance: take one tablet daily Monday to Friday, then don’t on Saturday and Sunday). I took it 5 days on 2 days off for one month.
One tablet of VRL-DX (formerly Viral Detox) a day (both anti-virals).
I slept A LOT!!!! I mean all day sometimes for a few days in a row. I just needed it. I let myself heal.
Then lastly was the most important and most interesting part of this journey, as I was still baffled as to why this came back. I just kept thinking, I was doing everything right!!! I may have been depleted but it’s not like I went back to eating chocolate chip cookies and ice cream! How could this be!! I just felt like I had been wrong about everything and then my dear wonderful healing guru and friend Kris Carr ( Crazy Sexy Life ) gave me a gentle nudge by suggesting I look into emotional healing. Something just clicked. I thought, well that is the one place I have not educated myself on. Whenever any of my books came to spirituality I skipped it and went straight to the facts. That is the scientist in me and quite frankly what is wrong with our whole medical system. This disconnection between mind and body is why sickness occurs, I am convinced. It is the answer to reversing the moment.
So I delved into spirituality and the emotion of healing. I walked around the lake listening to Deepak Chopra and Carolyn Myss ( Healing With Spirit ). This was very freeing. It was incredibly interesting and I’m still learning more about it. I can’t say there was a moment like, oh, that’s what I needed to know. It was just an overall feeling of well being. I also pictured my ovaries like little butterflies (more because it was easier than picturing my cervix, it’s really all the same though), happy and excited and fluttering around. This may sound silly but the more good energy you can focus on your healing the better and if that means thinking of butterflies so be it. When I went through this the first time everything I did was with the intention of healing. The food I made was to heal, the sleep I took was too heal, the exercise was to heal, etc….The mistake was once I was “healed” I stopped with the good intentions. So now I make sure that my focus is on well being so that even now that I’m healed I still have my intention set each day on what I want to accomplish and where I want my energy to go. You are energy. Make it a wonderful swirling tornado of love and hug yourself in it every day as silly as that sounds. Feed it with good food and nurture it. Give it love and it will grow. Your body is capable of amazing things! Trust it to take care of you!
All I can tell you ladies out there dealing with this is I have not only gotten rid of this once, but twice, so there’s no reason not to try!
So I am still learning, still growing and still educating myself. This experience has truly been a wonderful challenge and has made me even more sure of what I’ve learned, where I’m going, and the direction I want to keep going in.
My next step is to get rid of the remaining mercury and lead. My mercury is now at 16, down from 40. I will continue to use DMSA and chelation for 4 more months. This will also help to get rid of the remaining candida that came back after antibiotics last winter. The mercury and candida are linked in that they believe they feed off each other. I will attack the candida by again sticking to my diet and by taking Nystatin - which I’m not happy about but at the same time think my body could use it since I have 2 kinds of candida, candida intermedia and another kind I will have to look up, both are rather rare. The doctor was surprised. I also have 4 types of bad bacteria in my gut and I still have NO good bacteria. This has been 2 years of not one little good bacteria in my gut so we are on a mission to fix it. The probiotics just aren’t working. I don’t know where you go from here if these ones don’t work. I guess will see.
So that’s it in a nutshell for now! I will keep you posted as always along the way. Thank you so much for coming along with me on this journey! You all make it so much more fun and rewarding!