Hi there! Happy Monday to you! Today, I am not going to do my usual recap of the weekend post. Today, I am going to post about something significant that has happened in my life. Tomorrow, I will continue with my normal blogging but I really need to discuss this today.
I had mentioned briefly that something happened in my life and when I was ready, I was going to share on the blog. Today is that day. Today is one of the hardest days I have to go through because it is the transitioning of closing one door, and opening another as my blog post title suggests. I think in the words of Kelly Clarkson and her song, “Breakaway” says it perfectly for me:
“Trying hard to reach out But when I tried to speak out Felt like no one could hear me Wanted to belong here But something felt so wrong here So I prayed I could break awayI’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly I’ll do what it takes til’ I touch the sky And I’ll make a wish Take a chance Make a change And breakaway Out of the darkness and into the sun But I won’t forget all the ones that I love I’ll take a risk Take a chance Make a change And breakaway”
What I am trying to say is that, today is my last day at my job that I have been working at for the past 6.5 years. This was a difficult yet needed change in not only my life, but Mike’s life and the future of our family. I have been pretty miserable and let down from my job for a while now. When I started this was my very first job out of college. I was in the real world now. I tried my hardest at this job than I ever have in my entire life.
I tried for numerous promotions that I deserved but because of office politics was disappointed and let down. I traveled over an hour each way to this job, paying tolls, and filling my tank up with gas numerous times throughout the week. I would come in every single day at 6:15 am and work my hardest. I would come in on weekend and even work from home to prove my dedicated to this job. It wasn’t enough. I wasn’t being compensated in more ways than one for all of the hard work I was doing. I didn’t know when it would finally be enough.
It wasn’t all bad though. I met three people over the course of my journey at my job who would impact my life and help me realize things. Who would stick by me and be there when I needed to vent and for that I am ever so grateful. I will miss those people tremendously but I know if friendships are meant to be, we will see each other and talk to each other regardless of where we are working.
I also learned my love for planning events. I was the designated, “event planner” on my team. I would spend so much time and effort in coming up with ideas and planning the perfect event. My team depended on me and I sort of took on that role through the years. It made me realize that maybe this is my calling. So I took an event planning course online and got my certification. Then I planned the biggest event of my life, our wedding. After that, I knew this was something that I needed to do.
I knew that if I stayed where I was that Mike and I would never get the life that we wanted. We were turned away from buying a house because of my job. We couldn’t start a family or buy a dog all because of my job. I knew that I couldn’t put my life or Mike’s life on hold any longer. So I started applying for job, after job, after job. I would sit at my computer when I got home from work and on weekends for hours upon hours. I wouldn’t stop until I got interviews.
I did get some interviews but it never panned out and most of the time, it wasn’t something that I personally wanted to do. I didn’t want to just get out of my current job and rush into something that was worse just to leave. I wanted to go somewhere meaningful and do something I wanted to do.
I noticed in March that a company posted for a job that I was really interested in. I got a phone interview and I thought it went great. A week went by and I didn’t hear anything. So I contacted them and later found out that they decided not to hire for that job anymore. So I went on with my life. In May, I noticed another posting for that same job! I decided to apply again. I heard back and this time I was told I needed to have a phone interview with the woman who would be my boss if I got the job. She really liked me and called me in for an in-person interview. I was one of two candidates up for this position.
This process was very slow and more weeks went by. I finally had my in-person interview. It lasted four hours and I met with five people. It was very overwhelming and scary but when I walked through the door of that office, a feeling came over me that I couldn’t explain. I felt something when I walked in there like that was where I belonged. All of the people I met were extremely nice and I was very passionate about what I was saying throughout this interview process. I knew that I wanted this job, I needed this job.
A week went by and I didn’t hear anything. I couldn’t imagine me not getting this job because of how everyone spoke to me and things that were said. I didn’t get my hopes up too high because I didn’t want to be disappointed. I finally heard back and they said they wanted me to come in for one final interview. This time I met with two other people and it was very short. It went well but I was nervous as hell.
Well, three hours after the interview, I received a phone call stating how everyone loved me and they want nothing more than for me to work at their company! I couldn’t believe it. My dream actually came true! I am going to be an Event Planner for a non-profit organization about 20 minutes away from home! I finally got my dream job after working so incredibly hard and fighting so hard. I am finally going to be compensated the way that I should be, and I will be working very close to home and more importantly, doing something I love!
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. I’d be lying if I said I hope I can do this job. I’m nervous. It’s going to be a big transition especially since for the past 6.5 years I have been doing television listings. It’s going to be a transition that I am ready to make.
So today, after 6.5 years, I am saying goodbye. It is with a heavy heart. It is going to be very hard, and I know tears are going to be shed today but this is a positive change. I know I deserve this. I am going to take a deep breath, and after I hit publish on this post, I am going to move on with my last day. I know that this is the right decision and making a change is hard but this is something that I have to do for me and my future family.
So like Kelly Clarkson said,
“Buildings with a hundred floors Swinging around revolving doors Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me but Gotta keep moving on, moving on Fly away, breakaway”
Have a great day!