*PLEASE read all of this if you are going to comment -it’s important*
So as you saw my blog was on private.. It actually felt really good doing that because there is a LOT of personal stuff on my blog and i always worry that things will get out there, but at the same time I’m no ashamed of any of it, so I don’t really know why I worry about that.
Anyways… I just wanted to say that I am really happy.
In regards to food: I am eating a good amount for me, I enjoy it and while I can eat the same things over and over again.. that is honestly just me. I have always always been that way and I have to accept that i am just not like some people in that I can eat a variety all the time. I am just not. Always when I go about doing that I get bored and tired of thinking of new meals and I end up eating similar things. If I want something- ill eat it.. enough said.. normally I will end up eating something I usually have because its fresh in my mind and its tasty.
I don’t want to focus on food here anymore because it is just too sensitive a topic for most blog readers and myself really. I eat what I eat and I can promise you guys I am in a good place with it.
You should have seen me a few years ago when I was in a baddddd place. I dont give myself enough credit for how far I have come in my life and over the weekend I really realized how far I actually have come.
I’m not looking to ‘eat’ like your average Joe- I have a goal in life. I plan to become a personal trainer. I place to major in exercise science/kinesiology/fitness specialist and I enjoy eating the way I do because it is important to me to feel and look good. I plan to getting an even more muscular body.. I plan to have that ‘personal trainer’ look over the years.. so yes, I will be eating differently and more clean and strict to the normal person, but that is okay because I have a goal and future I want to reach. I am not strict on myself in an ED way.. trust me, I know what that is like and I am really NOt like that. Yes, I have some kinks to still work out, but everybody has kinks. I know I will smooth those out in the future because I always do.
I will focus on fitness, my life and continue to post about body image on this blog. I really don’t have a passion for food, nor do I want to get into that because its too sensitive in blog world. I have a big passion for fitness, so that’s why I’m going to focus on it.
I’m glad I took the time to think all of this over the weekend. I think some readers perceive me in a different way to who I am , which is understandable because you don’t actually see me live my real life in action, but I hope this shows you guys that I do know who I am and I really am in a happy, healthy place.