Walking With the Lord: My anxious and fearful thoughts

Over the past several months I have struggled with feeling anxious. Anxious for all the unknowns in both my life and in life in general. I am a person who likes to have life settled, needs to know where things are going and have some type of routine to my day. Since our move in the fall all of these things flew out the door and I have been struggling to grasp at the straws of life to once again make some order.

My anxious heart has left me sleepless (well close to it) on many nights as I've wrestled with issues that surround my day to day life as a mother and wife, personal relationships and interactions with church and fellow Christians and then branches out to what is going on in the world and especially our nation.

As I lay in bed, tossing and turning, fear wells up. Overall, I'm not an overly fearful person, but when tiredness overcomes me and darkness surrounds me, fear creeps into my thoughts and my dreams. I can become overwhelmed by the fear of the unknown. My brain begins to make scenarios for different situations I am trying to sort through in life and many a night has found me in tears with a racing heart.