At the beginning of each year it seems that I have a list of things that I set out to accomplish. On the top of my list is the desire to be a better wife. Maybe I need to be more understanding to why my husband refuses to accept Christ as his Savior. Maybe I need to be more submissive. Or maybe I should relax a bit on my want for him to be the Spiritual leader of our home.
Another item on my list is to be a better mother. Maybe I push them too hard when they want to stay home from church. Maybe I need to stop giving them lectures on the principles of God. Maybe I need to stop telling them that I am a woman who fears God and I would not be doing His will if I didn't tell them the truth of God's Word. Maybe I should just keep God all to myself and just not say anything about Him. NOT! I don't think so!
The only thing that is going on my list this year is God and God alone. I want to get to know Him. I am going to put Him first everyday. That is my New Year resolution. And when I get overly concerned about this world's worries and begin to sink in the water - I am going to shake the dust off my feet and press into the Word.
"I have not stopped giving thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers. I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better" (Ephesians 1:16-17, NIV).
I know that by choosing to seek God early before I begin my day, He will make me a better wife - regardless of my husband's position with Him. I know that by choosing to get down on my knees and pray for my family that He will make me a better mother.
"But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul" (Deuteronomy 4:28-30, NIV).
I had a conversation with God the other day and I just wanted to be honest with Him. I realized that I knew more of who He is rather than know Him like a child knows his father. I sat at my dining room table and told Him that I want to get to know Him. I want what He wants in my life.
I want a closer relationship with Jesus. I want more of Him in my life. I want to feel the presence of the Holy Spirit. And when I am faced with those times when I don't feel God's presence, I want to know in my heart that He is with me no matter how I feel. Yes I want family to follow Christ as I do but I want God more.
"Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts. Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice. Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always" (1Chronicles 16:9-11).
"Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight" (Proverbs 3:3-6).
I don't want to worry about anymore tomorrows. I don't want to worry about my husband's destiny if he doesn't get saved. I don't want to fear what tomorrow holds. When I allow anxiety to envelope me, my focus is pulled away from God. And God needs to be first. As I get to know Christ and am drawn to the Father through His Word, I am filled with the joy of Jesus. I have days that are filled with happiness; but oh how I love the days that are filled with the joy of Jesus.
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength" (Deuteronomy 6:5).
I love loving the Lord. My desire for this year is to get to know Him more. I want my love for Him to grow. Ladies I want to encouraged you to walk closer to God. Begin your day with Jesus. Get on your knees before you brush your teeth. Spend time with God with your first cup of coffee. Then take Him with you through your whole day. May the hand of our mighty God bless you all.