Do you all remember this song? I love it And today that’s just how I felt, Don’t steal my sunshine.
We have been some cold weather here in Denver lately. Over the weekend, I don’t even think it got above 20 degrees Fahrenheit. Today though–in the high 40s, low 50s!! You know what that means!
Please notice the smile and the tank top!! I walked outside with a jacket and gloves before tossing them in my parents’ garage and heading off. The weather was beautiful and today was one of my hardest C25k workouts (20 minutes jogging non-stop). I made it about 13 minutes without stopping, which I was pretty proud of. I’m still working on pacing, and that seems to be key in this whole jogging thing.
Got home and polished off one of these:
I got some vanilla flavored ones that I’m excited to try. The chocolate became overpowering, and that’s saying something coming from someone with a freakish ability to consume very rich chocolate desserts in decent quantities
After a quick shower, I had a meeting with my healer, which boosted the already good mood I was. I’m sure that the word “healer” seems pretty vague, and so I thought I’d tell you a little bit more about the type of work I do with her, since I’m no longer in traditional therapy. To be honest though, I never know what to say when people ask me that because like I said, it’s not traditional therapy.
It’s similar to therapy in that we discuss issues I’m currently facing, or preparing for things that might be upsetting in the future. Where it differs is how we deal with these things. Because of her incredibly strong and accurate intuition, my healer is able to pick up on things from my past, present, and future, which is helpful because I didn’t have to go over my entire history with her. We’ve also been working on developing my own intuitive skills, which helps me feel more confident. I’m now able to trust myself more than I used to, and for a while now I’ve been seeing how accurate my gut feelings actually are. It’s pretty awesome
In fact, I feel that this is the biggest change I’ve made in the last month or so. It was a big leap of faith for me to actually start trusting myself, because for years I hadn’t allowed that. For years, I kept the voices of other people in the back of my head and I let them control the things I did and how I felt about myself.
Now, I decide how I feel. I decide who I am. I don’t let others define me anymore, or at least, I’m really working on it.
Once I started making a concerted effort to build myself up instead of tear myself down, things changed and they changed fast. I started looking forward and being excited about all the things my life has in store for me in the future, rather than trying to fix things that belonged in the past.
Leaving the past in the past does amazing things for your present.
As I was driving home from my appointments this afternoon, the sun was out and shining and I was happy in a way that I haven’t been in a long time. I actually found myself laughing out loud because this is my new normal, and that’s really exciting.