After my confession yesterday, I have had a lot of rumination over this area in my life. This morning a lot of interesting stuff came up surrounding this so I thought I would share some more. I was going thru some random e letters I am signed up for and one that really resonated was “are you committed or just interested?” (I will use my yoga practice as example) To be just interested: you do only when convenient (hmmm) ~I do it inconsistently, only when I “feel like it”(ruh roh) ~able to find excuses to NOT do it. (oh yeah) ~have excuses during the day to justify “lack” of commitment (ie. I don’t have time today, I need a more intense workout for now etc.) ~hesitant attempts to start, but give up easily(ie. will start an hour long video and quit 1/2 way thru due to “other commitments”) ~you and the “committee in your head” debate the topic over and over and over..(ie. could spend the whole day debating the benefit of doing it vs. the harder workout) ~feel frustrated because you KNOW you should do it, but don’t!(alas, I could have spent this time doing a video or sun salutations, but instead am sitting here reading and writing!!!) To be 100% committed to something: NO excuse zone ~No excuse gets in the way.. only results ~you HAVE the discipline..it is just part of your day (I have this with other exercise,,, rain or sun snow or not I go out and run, hike or walk) ~the decision has been made and sealed ~no space for debate committee in your head (just do it) ~life is easier because you have focus ~its non negotiable..you turn up everyday despite obstacles and not feeling like it..NO MATTER WHAT WOW... after reading that I realized I am 100% interested in yoga and have had ZERO committed. Then I wonder why I never get any further with goals!! OYE. I also had the word obedience come up for the card I picked to meditate on.. hmmmm... so as I meditated and thought about obedience and commitment, I visualized myself going to this workshop.. being committed to furthering my passion to this practice, showing up on my mat everyday until then and working on the areas I need to to get stronger to achieve these inversions (arms, core, flexibility) then, most importantly I visualized feeling success!!! I remembered how it was the first time I was able to do a headstand (in the middle of the room no less!) It was thrilling! I think I was glowing the whole rest of the day.. like a kid, couldn’t wait to do it again. I saw this happening for myself at this workshop. Even if after the whole thing, I only get up into handstand once...it will be worth it! If I don’t go it definitely will NOT happen... but if I do go...who knows right?? SO, I leave you with this question... How much do you really want something you have coveted in your life? You can only be successful if you commit to your intention!
whether you think you can or cannot, you are right!