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six months in and all is about as well as can be expected by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder Today is the official six month mark for my sobriety. I still dream about drinking and doping when I’m asleep, but when I’m awake the thought of it repulses me. It ha ... Read on »

way off in music world today by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder It’s astounding to me that I’ve been so depressed/fucked-up (as in dope) that I haven’t played a single note of music for somewhere in the four to five year range. It’s ... Read on »

not looking like my day by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder Nothing like a little failure to grease the skids to hell. I blew off the walk this morning. In fact I blew off getting up. When I came too a little after 8 the only thing ... Read on »

shocked system by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder It’s about half past noon and my body doesn’t know what to think about being put through the old walking paces first thing. My appetite is way up. I took a nap for almos ... Read on »

early a.m. walking man by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder I did it! I dragged myself out of bed with the alarm, ate a bite, and hit the pavement. Walked for 50 minutes. Was pretty tired coming the hills on the way home. I don’t ... Read on »

decent day in spite of the blues by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder It’s been a decent day for me in spite of low energy and depressed mood. I managed to do the prep work for supper tonight. Vacuumed part of the house. Washed a load of clo ... Read on »

what’s in store? by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Questions & Answers in Bipolar Disorder Within the first 15 minutes or so of my getting up in the mornings I can tell whether it’s going to be a depressed day or not. About half the time the depression will on ... Read on »

summer stroll by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder Broke down and went for a walk after nine this morning. First time in nearly two weeks. It was plenty hot but so much that it affected my ability to move. Well under 90 ... Read on »

more of the same on tap this week by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder Yet another week of oppressive heat, thunderstorms, and trips to the vet. I should be grateful that at least I have something to look forward to. Mad Men, my favorite ... Read on »

sunday blues by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder I slept well and for close to 11 hours. Even then I didn’t want to get up. I did anyway and that was probably a mistake. The morning dragged by painfully slow. I’ve trie ... Read on »

rudy’s still alive (or was an hour ago) by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder An inebriated Rudy phoned in. Same ole shit at his place, minus the crack. He claims he’s been removed from it for three and a half months. I find it hard to believe. I ... Read on »

raining its ass off by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder Met with the dermatologist. Lilly has either grown resistant to a certain family of antibiotics or she’s picked up a drug resistant bug. I’m pretty sure it’s the latter. ... Read on »

it’s on by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder Lilly is at the dermatologist’s. It’ll almost certainly be late this afternoon before they summon me to bring them a large check and retrieve her. I’m glad we took her. ... Read on »

old dog’s new trick by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder Lilly had decided that thunder means it time to piss in the house. She got me good a week or so back with the great bed-wetting. Nailed me again today with two huge lake ... Read on »

the cycle continues by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder I slept well and for almost 11 hours last night. This morning I feel much better. No hangover from all the sleep, which tells me I needed it. The depressed mood continue ... Read on »

a joyful noise by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder Apparently nothing quite like singing Allman Brothers songs to make me feel better. That and a shower and I almost felt human by time to take Lilly to the vet. It’s carr ... Read on »

pushing through by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder I’m super-duper tired yet again today. I dreamed most of the night. That didn’t help. I took a nap for over an hour this morning but that didn’t help either. Somehow I d ... Read on »

numb to terrible? by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Questions & Answers in Bipolar Disorder Today has been a pretty shitty day. I’ve been very tired all day. I’ve tried to take a nap at least three different times but to no avail. I fucked my blog up. (See prev ... Read on »

words to the wise (or “stupid is as stupid does”) by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder Sometimes if you don’t feel like doing something, don’t do it. In an attempt to delete my categories so that I can rework them from scratch, I managed to delete an en ... Read on »

up and irritable by Greybeards Patient Expert

Posted in: Blog Posts in Bipolar Disorder I went to bed at a decent hour and slept well, at least for me. Still, when I finally fell out at 7:30, I was still sleepy. I’ve been up almost two hours now and I’m tir ... Read on »