I apologize for the long lapse in posting. Now that I’m 2 & 1/2 years Cushing’s free and for the most part, fully recovered I find that Cushing’s no longer consumes my mind & body day in and day out. There are days when I think back to the months (and years) I suffered in agony with Cushing’s and it’s feels like a distant memory. The person I was 2 & 1/2 years ago is so different from the person I am today. I’m not really sure when this shift started to take place?
My journey with Cushing’s began in 2003 when I was pregnant with my son and I began to develop symptoms in my last trimester of pregnancy. By the time my son was born, my symptoms were full-blown and my health took a downward spiral. Over the next 4+ years, I tried my best to compensate for the body that was failing me - it was a battle that I was slowly loosing with each day that passed.
During these first 4 years of my son’s life, I feel like I missed out on being the mother I had always yearned to be because I was so damn sick - fatigue from insomnia, aches & pains throughout my entire body, hot flashes, the inability to sit still because of cortisol surges…the list goes on and on.
My son was almost 4 & 1/2 when I finally got a diagnosis of Cushing’s syndrome. My journey back from recovery took a solid 18 months and during that time, my son continued to get older and I became less & less capable of being the active mother I so wanted to be for him. I spent many days and nights in bed, in pain and exhausted wondering if I would ever regain some sort of normalcy in life. I was only 31 damn it and it felt like I was being cheated out of my youth.
Fast-forward two years later…
I recently celebrated my 33rd birthday and feel better than I have in YEARS. I’m no longer limited by the physical state of my body - I can bike, work out, do hot yoga, relax & meditate, I can chase after my soon to be 7 year old son - I no longer have to tell my son I can’t do something because my body hurts. I feel like I’m able to be the mom I’ve yearned to be but couldn’t because I was hindered by Cushing’s.
Words can’t describe how grateful I am to have my body, mind and spirit healthy. Every time I work out or doing anything that requires a little extra from my body, I’m reminded that it’s a gift - one that I treasure.