It’s been just over two years since I had surgery to remove my right adrenal gland that had developed benign tumor as a result of my 4 1/2 year battle with Cushing’s syndrome . For those who’ve experienced Cushing’s first hand, you know all the many ways this disease destroys your health and your body. For most of us, our health can be regained slowly over time. But the physical tolls Cushing’s takes on one’s body results in horrendous scarring & loose skin and it’s something we continue to live with, long after we’ve been cured. Even when all the weight has been lost, there’s no amount of exercise or dieting that can reverse stretch marks or over-stretched skin.
Over the past two years, I’ve learned how to dress my post-Cushing’s body - accentuating the positives and hiding the flaws. But there are still times that I find it impossible to dress my body without feeling (and looking) fat and frumpy. I”m happy to say that those days are far and few between.
The major issue that I continue to struggle with - especially as my body has shed the weight and begun to reshape itself - is accepting and coming to terms with what I see in the mirror, no clothes to hide behind - just me. I feel like my outer body isn’t a true reflection of who I am and all the hard work I’ve done to get to this point.
So I’ve been exploring the option of plastic surgery to restore some of what I lost from having Cushing’s. And I feel some what conflicted. On the one hand, I feel like I should come to terms with what I do have and accept my body the way it is. But there’s a big part of me that yearns to have a body that doesn’t look like it’s been through the war zone. I’ve given myself until next year to make a final decision.
I’d love to know if any of you have contemplated plastic surgery and if you have, what was your final decision?