Image via WikipediaRemission: The hope of everyone who suffers from a chronic illness . Complete, total, going back to my old life remission . Forgetting it ever happened; the pain the fears and the dependency on a medical profession that does not have answers.
It has been 6 years since I became disabled with Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy aka Chronic Regional Pain Syndrome. It is a chronic. progressive and incurable neurological condition. Since the entire sympathetic nervous system is involved, spreads can occur to any part of the body; internal and external.
Recently, I have been researching the chances of complete and total remission and the prospects are not looking good. Then it occurred to me; there are different types of remission. Mental and Physical.
In the last 2 yrs, I have achieved "mental remission" . Gone are the days I wish I was dead; gone is the depression that was so bad at times I felt I couldn't breathe. Gone are the feelings of feeling useless; a burden to my family.
Instead, it has been replaced by a sense of HOPE A "knowing" that everything happens for a reason. I have found purpose in my life again by helping others. Re-gaining my sense of worth. That even though I am not physically able to do what I used to, I can still do something of value
Everyone needs to feel needed and loved. .They need to laugh and cry and feel alive. These small items seem to fall by the wayside when you are in throes of a chronic illness. Hopelessness becomes the norm. A defeatest attitude can become a habit.
Break the cycle! Find something you can do; even if it is the smallest thing. Try being grateful. No matter who bad things sometimes seem, it can always be worse. Time to take an inventory; an internal inventory. Find your strengths. Fake it until you make it. But, every day that is spent in self-pity, anger, self-destructive behavior is a lost day of your life. Spend them wisely! You will never get another one just like today. Don't wast another one.