Looking to others

After last night I knew that I would need to take it easy today.  So I gave myself less spoons.  I have already used three & so now I will be resting with just two remaining.  It can be so hard feeling so tired the time.  But I have time to spend with my family and friends.  That is most important to me right now.  This morning, I did get stuck into a DIY project.  I know it's a little naughty but I've been itching to do it so many days!  It's turning a T-shirt into a one shoulder top which is something I’ve done before except today I am following a couple of new learned techniques to create a more customized and flattering look.  It should be finished by the end of today but would that count as one of my spoons?  You're right I do know the answer to that. 

I will pop to college tomorrow to hand in my assignment for my photography City and Guild course.  I will be relieved to let it go.  I have persevered with this course despite obstacles.  Physically shaking, being unwell, loss of concentration, and general lethargy has made this course challenging but managed to see it through to the end.  I took my new Diana+ analogue camera today but the poor weather meant that I could not take any shots.  The market at Merton Abbey Mills was a tad lacklustre, but it was nice to look over at the Canal where the river Wandle flows.  It seemed very different to the craft market I used to known as a child.  But it's still a lovely little spot in south London that has a sense of nostalgia and simplicity.  My breathing has been very difficult today.  I am keeping my eye on it and noting any further changes that I may need to report to the Freeman. 

The lack of sleep I’ve endured for many weeks just doesn't help when trying to make myself better.  I am being spoiled this evening with a roast dinner my favourite home-made by mum so that should see me in the right direction.  I probably need to drink more water than I have been the past couple of days and that will help me to feel more claims in clearheaded.  I look around my bedroom and I can see that some clothes have escaped from my wardrobe.  I am tempted to get them all down and put them right back where they belong but again that would be using another spoon.  Nope,  I must ignore what is looking at me and  instead focus on myself.  I have a new relaxing bath kit I might try this evening with a scrub, candles and whatnot.  Oh this is going to be so difficult this ‘relaxing’ lark!