Doubt and Hippocratic Oath

I haven't been blogging as much or getting on due to personal issues. Also I found myself becoming a slave to blogging where I would feel guilty if I hadn't read other posts or commented. I want it to be enjoyable again so I have taken some time out.

Last week when I was admitted to the Emergency Room my nurse was a character of sorts.

Her demeanour  and attitude was abrupt and prying. Normally I am happy to share and educate someone on my condition, however in this case my back got up.

She took me to the cubicle, pointed at the hospital gown and said, you know the drill you have been here enough. Then she returned later with a rapid fire of questions went like this. What is it that you have, I haven't seen one. With which I happily told her and showed her my wee stoma

"Why do you have a Urinary Diversion? " was the next question, with which I explained then her questions became more directed "Why do you have so many infections", etc etc.

I didn't mind the questions it was the tone. What went from happily giving her some education changed to a Nazi like interrogation. W.T.F I was thinking, who the hell do you think you are.

She walked in at one stage and I thought she took my Urine sample away as she was doing something with it. When she came back in later she said something about my urine, I said oh I though you took it before she snapped back "we have other sick patients you know!"  This didnt made any sense as she was labelling it, then just left it in my cubicle.

A friend called me on my mobile, I told him what a cow my Nurse was being, then she walked in.

She took my recordings then asked me "Are you upset about something" "Are you upset with me", I couldn't be bothered getting into it so I just said no. She had been listening outside the curtain.

Sometimes I am so tired I cant be bothered with the bullshit, she knew she had treated me like crap and was fully aware of what I said to my friend on the phone. I didn't need to explain it any further.

The rest of the stay in general was no problem. On the ward the staff were all good. Some weird moments but in general uneventful regarding any asshole issues.

Regarding the Emergency Nurse

I should have known from her very first comments to me that the Emergency Nurse was the judgemental type.

She had labelled me a frequent flier in her head, thank god I wasn't in much pain as I had it under control because she would have probably labelled me as some sort of seeker.

Considering I have had only on two occasions in a year or so where I have required any strong pain relief from them due to intractable pain.

How this woman treated me was not professional, she set out to make me feel crap and well it didn't work.

If I am put in a position where I am forced to defend myself, I will.

I no longer turn over in my bed, go all foetal and let people say what they want to me that is hurtful and unkind. I will stand up for my rights, correct them if they are wrong and have written a letter that sits in my notes.

I don't have anyone in my life that will stand beside me and stand up to these bullies. Its down to me, I have changed and for the better as I will fight against being made a victim in any context. I haven't got this far in life to bow down to bullies.

Years of putting up with a relative who had a very low self esteem and always wanted others beneath her (mainly me) has affected me over the years. I could never do anything right in her eyes. God forbid if I succeeded in anything that would make her even more determined to bring me down a peg or five. We all come across people like this in life, their problem becomes yours.
Its unfortunate to find people like this in the medical industry as the power over patients can be extreme.

Some people prefer to not rock the boat, are scared of reproach, or that they wont be treated medically if they complain or stand up to certain staff. No one has to feel so powerless.

Picking on vulnerable people is nothing more than a power trip. If Medical staff find themselves resenting, judging, or constantly labelling patients then they should change jobs.

The Hippocratic oath says "do no harm" that also includes mentally berating patients.