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Okay, first I want to let you know that the following is not meant to be a scientific or case study result or even one of my experiments…
This is just what my life is like at the moment, and my own thoughts and observations as a result…okay…now that that’s out of the way..
I’m sure dear reader, follower, subscriber…that you at some point or another over the past two weeks have had to deal with some sort of issue that caused you Stress..
I have written several small posts about stress and or have asked a question relating to stress such as..
Okay, so the above posts either made mention of stress, or touched upon stress possibly from an anecdotal view.
But I do not want to treat the subject of stress lightly, and it’s time to come clean as to it’s overall effects on me.
To be able to understand my feelings and thought patterns about this subject, I need to go back to the beginning of the decade…to the year 2000
In 2000, the time felt to me like everything was a possibility.
A better marriage, a better family life, a better relationship with my Mother and Father and my daughter.
The time just seemed to be full of promise…
In 2001, my father had the first of several issues with the his lungs..he would be hospitalized at least four other times over the next five years…and being an only child, I would find myself smack dab on the firing line as far as having to make decisions with my mother in regard to my father’s health during these hospital stays.
In 2005, I lost my father, and my mother came to live with us in our home, and the tension in our home was thicker than a NY Sirloin Strip Steak!
My mother would pass away two years later to the day in 2007, after a stay in a hospital in Brooklyn, while visiting my family down there.
I would have to take a leave of absence from the job in order to take care of matters for my mother as far as her health was concerned.
Trust me when I tell you that this was not a pleasant time, as I was traveling back and forth to this Brooklyn hospital at best every other day..until her passing after a final visit on a Sunday.
She would pass away eleven days after my father had passed away two years earlier.
Okay, so here was ” Seven Years Of Stress ” that had taken it’s toll on my health and well being…and then would come 2008.
2008 I felt was going to be my year to shake the past and move forward, and I was really excited to finally be able to move forward and start to take a bigger part in my job and possible career..finally.
In February, my condition would start to show itself, but not directly, but rather indirectly through my bouts of Asthma, which at one point would almost kill me on an early Thursday morning in april.
I wound up waking up on that fateful Thursday at 3am, my wife was first coming to bed and I woke up and was having difficulty with my breathing.
I was breathing so hard, that I needed my atomizer unit ( at the time it was some sort of albuterol delivery system, but I am not sure which it was at that time ) and I almost bought the farm that morning. I wound up going to Crystal Run Medical very early that morning ( in hindsight I should have just gone to a hospital at that point ) and saw the doctor at that time responsible for lungs ( I won’t mention this doctor’s name ), but I would eventually get to work.
I should also point out that at this time I was also dealing with issues with acid reflux, and my traditional medication, Prevacid was not being covered by my health insurance.
Was there stress at this point…well do you think you would have some stress after all of this?.. and unbeknownst to me…it was not over either.
Between the months of May and June, I would be hospitalized, with several matters going a wry with my body..
- Terrible issues with Acid Reflux due to not having the proper medication due to my insurance plan.
- A bad case of Pneumonia in my lower left lung.
- Kidney Stones ( yes…stones, not stone ) and I would finally leave the hospital with one stone still not being passed.
- A mysterious condition… that luckily two doctors were able to diagnose…Churg Strauss Syndrome.
And near the end of 2008, my boss left our department and our company. I had only been back to work for about three months all together.
My job was not overly stressful at this time, but after our boss left, well that all changed.
My job now ( for me anyway ) has become much more stressful, as the demands of doing a job while working just four days a week, every other week without overtime, would take it’s toll on my stress levels and of course my overall health.
And this continues to this very day, as we have another person in my department, have just been put back on another furlough program, a writeup in September, and at the moment my worries over paying my bills, working for a manager who really does not think much of me and does not understand my condition, nor in my opinion really cares one way or another.
My stress levels are always high now due to these issues…and what does this all do to my health…
This is what I have observed, after a bit more than a year now with CSS…
Stress makes my conditi0n more exacerbated and shows in the following ways when very bad…
- I have actually noticed over the past month, that stress does effect my Asthma
- Issues with my stomach, as far as digestion and pain and cramping, along with gas and bloating
- My Neuropathy condition certainly becomes much worse when I am stressed or just overworked, whether at work or at home, and in this case stress can be justb from doing too much work during a bad snow storm, as far as my having to do the clean up around my home.
- And of course, as I have already mentioned, my stress levels about my present precarious position at my job, has become an issue that just haunts my sleep and thus makes my stress just terrible.
Well, that’s it for now everyone…and I’m sorry if this was not a pretty picture that I’ve drawn for everyone today, but for the moment…this is my reality at this moment in time, and this is what all of this stress has caused me.
I welcome your thoughts and comments about stress, and how it effects your lifestyle.
Lew
If you're new here, you may want to subscribe to my RSS feed. Thanks for visiting!
Okay, first I want to let you know that the following is not meant to be a scientific or case study result or even one of my experiments…
This is just what my life is like at the moment, and my own thoughts and observations as a result…okay…now that that’s out of the way..
I’m sure dear reader, follower, subscriber…that you at some point or another over the past two weeks have had to deal with some sort of issue that caused you Stress..
I have written several small posts about stress and or have asked a question relating to stress such as..
Okay, so the above posts either made mention of stress, or touched upon stress possibly from an anecdotal view.
But I do not want to treat the subject of stress lightly, and it’s time to come clean as to it’s overall effects on me.
To be able to understand my feelings and thought patterns about this subject, I need to go back to the beginning of the decade…to the year 2000
In 2000, the time felt to me like everything was a possibility.
A better marriage, a better family life, a better relationship with my Mother and Father and my daughter.
The time just seemed to be full of promise…
In 2001, my father had the first of several issues with the his lungs..he would be hospitalized at least four other times over the next five years…and being an only child, I would find myself smack dab on the firing line as far as having to make decisions with my mother in regard to my father’s health during these hospital stays.
In 2005, I lost my father, and my mother came to live with us in our home, and the tension in our home was thicker than a NY Sirloin Strip Steak!
My mother would pass away two years later to the day in 2007, after a stay in a hospital in Brooklyn, while visiting my family down there.
I would have to take a leave of absence from the job in order to take care of matters for my mother as far as her health was concerned.
Trust me when I tell you that this was not a pleasant time, as I was traveling back and forth to this Brooklyn hospital at best every other day..until her passing after a final visit on a Sunday.
She would pass away eleven days after my father had passed away two years earlier.
Okay, so here was ” Seven Years Of Stress ” that had taken it’s toll on my health and well being…and then would come 2008.
2008 I felt was going to be my year to shake the past and move forward, and I was really excited to finally be able to move forward and start to take a bigger part in my job and possible career..finally.
In February, my condition would start to show itself, but not directly, but rather indirectly through my bouts of Asthma, which at one point would almost kill me on an early Thursday morning in april.
I wound up waking up on that fateful Thursday at 3am, my wife was first coming to bed and I woke up and was having difficulty with my breathing.
I was breathing so hard, that I needed my atomizer unit ( at the time it was some sort of albuterol delivery system, but I am not sure which it was at that time ) and I almost bought the farm that morning. I wound up going to Crystal Run Medical very early that morning ( in hindsight I should have just gone to a hospital at that point ) and saw the doctor at that time responsible for lungs ( I won’t mention this doctor’s name ), but I would eventually get to work.
I should also point out that at this time I was also dealing with issues with acid reflux, and my traditional medication, Prevacid was not being covered by my health insurance.
Was there stress at this point…well do you think you would have some stress after all of this?.. and unbeknownst to me…it was not over either.
Between the months of May and June, I would be hospitalized, with several matters going a wry with my body..
And near the end of 2008, my boss left our department and our company. I had only been back to work for about three months all together.
My job was not overly stressful at this time, but after our boss left, well that all changed.
My job now ( for me anyway ) has become much more stressful, as the demands of doing a job while working just four days a week, every other week without overtime, would take it’s toll on my stress levels and of course my overall health.
And this continues to this very day, as we have another person in my department, have just been put back on another furlough program, a writeup in September, and at the moment my worries over paying my bills, working for a manager who really does not think much of me and does not understand my condition, nor in my opinion really cares one way or another.
My stress levels are always high now due to these issues…and what does this all do to my health…
This is what I have observed, after a bit more than a year now with CSS…
Stress makes my conditi0n more exacerbated and shows in the following ways when very bad…
Well, that’s it for now everyone…and I’m sorry if this was not a pretty picture that I’ve drawn for everyone today, but for the moment…this is my reality at this moment in time, and this is what all of this stress has caused me.
I welcome your thoughts and comments about stress, and how it effects your lifestyle.
Lew