I know I'm not super tech savvy, but . . . when I go to make a simple change, a change I've made before, it should not have been hijacked by Google Apps in the mean time and changed into something requiring some real computer knowledge.
Without the option of talking to a live person on the phone . . . arghhhh! Although, I think the guy I found on the Google forum after two hair pulling days is real . . .
He just tells me to do things I don't quite understand . . . Sigh. I've spent the last few months doing a little thinking between feeling sorry for myself and reading every book on my book shelf.
I've been re evaluating.
Lecturing. (myself) I'm a follow the rules, do things right, take your responsibilities serious, kind of girl.
While I can't help but make the things I do fun or interesting whenever possible, there is always that niggle of guilt.
Because life is serious business people! Work before pleasure. You know . . .
Dishes before seed starting. Laundry before taking 100 pictures of the cake I just baked. Scrubbing the bathroom before hand crafting the new tags for my April sale . . .
Let's face it though . . the fun stuff almost always won out. And thus the niggling guilt.
But as I sat for all those months, unable to do any of the important, serious, stuff, I started to realize that it still all got done. Somehow.
That, even though I couldn't do all of those important, serious, things, I was still worthwhile. God loves me for who I am. Not what Ido.
My family and friends love me for who I am, not what I do.
I began to wonder if in fact my desire to make things, grow things, photograph things, and . . . and . . . write about things . . . was so very strong because those were the talents God intended me to focus on. Without that niggle of guilt.
But . . . still scrubbing the bathroom once in a while. ( Because otherwise. . . well . . . that would just be gross. . .)
So, some changes are coming.
One of which I would have shared with you tomorrow . . . if Google Apps hadn't stopped me in my tracks . . I finally gave myself a time out late this afternoon and did this instead . . .
Nothing cheers me up like a fresh, apple struesel coffee cake! Or taking numerous pictures of one . . . I'm going to get a good night's sleep and tackle the dragon that is Google Apps, again tomorrow.
It's a good thing I'm too stubborn to give up.
Now if I could just remember where I put that armor . . . I think I'm gonna need it!