Something that I’ve been struggling with a lot lately and probably for as long as I can remember is being at a point in my life where I could say that I am truly happy with everything. Don’t get this confused though. I’m not saying that my life is miserable in every aspect because it’s not. I am really trying to look for my purpose in life – something that excites me from the time I wake up until the time I absolutely have to sleep. I realize that I am possible going through what they call a “quarterlife crisis.” And even thinking that maybe I need some kind of professional help, after reading this post , I am slowly rethinking it.
There are times when I hear about people go through big changes in their lives, like – they’re having a baby! or, she’s working at this really cool job now, or he got a really nice raise at work, or they bought a house! and something in me feels jealous over them or that person. I don’t resent them or hate them, but I guess I just feel like, when is something like that ever going to happen to me? I realize that anything in this life is either by luck or by hard work. But I do work hard. And I do everything I am supposed to do. Why can’t I feel that sense of, ‘I can say that I am really happy with my life right now.’ ? You might think this is me being a spoiled brat, but I think that I am probably not alone in this.
I just need some clarity in my life. And yes, I am going back to saying that I just need to put together my ultimate life goals out there. I do get scared. I get scared that I might not achieve them. I guess that is normal to feel that way though. But I know if I never try, then I will never know. But at the same time, I need to be responsible too. So it’s easier said than done. And I know that the only way to find this happiness is from within, and I am the only one that can make it happen. We are all unique and have something to offer in this world – I just need to find out what that is for me.
I just had to put it out there. I hope that I can one day get the courage to share my goals with everyone, once I actually figure that out.
There are times when I hear about people go through big changes in their lives, like – they’re having a baby! or, she’s working at this really cool job now, or he got a really nice raise at work, or they bought a house! and something in me feels jealous over them or that person. I don’t resent them or hate them, but I guess I just feel like, when is something like that ever going to happen to me? I realize that anything in this life is either by luck or by hard work. But I do work hard. And I do everything I am supposed to do. Why can’t I feel that sense of, ‘I can say that I am really happy with my life right now.’ ? You might think this is me being a spoiled brat, but I think that I am probably not alone in this.
I just need some clarity in my life. And yes, I am going back to saying that I just need to put together my ultimate life goals out there. I do get scared. I get scared that I might not achieve them. I guess that is normal to feel that way though. But I know if I never try, then I will never know. But at the same time, I need to be responsible too. So it’s easier said than done. And I know that the only way to find this happiness is from within, and I am the only one that can make it happen. We are all unique and have something to offer in this world – I just need to find out what that is for me.
I just had to put it out there. I hope that I can one day get the courage to share my goals with everyone, once I actually figure that out.