Confession Time: I Have to Quit Running, But I’m Not Quitting on ME!!
Posted Feb 25 2010 5:30am
The only kicks I've been wearing lately are my Chucks. Sigh...
Hey guys! I think it’s so appropriate that Taj issued that 40 day challenge yesterday. I’ve been in somewhat of a rut, and it was just what I needed.
I think it's time I told you -- I've been having some health issues and can’t really run for the time being. I am confident that everything will be resolved, but for right now, any kind of intense exercise exacerbates the problem, so I’ve had to stay away from my beloved pastime for the last couple of months.
It hasn’t been easy for someone who was once training for races to all of a sudden have to give up running entirely. In fact, I’ve been very discouraged and sometimes downright depressed. I can still walk and use an elliptical machine and swim. And I can lift light weights, but I stopped doing that for a while even.
A couple of days ago, I found myself eating three cupcakes out of anxiety. That’s something I hadn’t done in a long, looong time. The truth is, I’ve been slipping up quite a bit lately. And allowing it, because after all, I can’t run or workout like I used to, right? What a terrible reason! You see, at my core, I’m an emotional eater. Even when I was a kid, I would always use food to self-medicate instead of dealing with the problem at hand. But I’ve undergone a radical change in my way of thinking and living. And while the tendency to eat emotionally is still in me, I don’t often entertain it. I just can’t go back to where I came from!
I remember crying and pleading with God many times over to change me and my destructive habits, and he did. Which is why with his help, a lot of sweat, discipline, and encouraging people like Taj, I lost 60+ lbs in the last three years. I am completely changed. And I refuse to go back to my old habits.
I was reminded of this by a friend on Tuesday night, and I guess it struck me that I’ve been walking around with a defeatist attitude, and it’s just plain wrong! I am NOT defeated!
SO, I have to quit running for now, but I am NOT quitting on ME. I'm not throwing away all that I’ve accomplished thus far. The pity party ends here, and for the next 40 days, I am recommitting to working out (in ways that I can) and in eating right. No excuses.
How about you? Do you need to recommit to your health and fitness goals? And have you ever suffered a sickness or injury that kept you from the gym? How did you stay fit? Please share!