I was getting my prescriptions filled yesterday- I had taken them to a new place because I found a $25 coupon if you brought in a new prescription. Once we got the insurance all sorted out (a lengthy process since all of the information isn't super obvious on the card), I went to pay for the pills, and the pharmacist asked me this:
"Does your insurance cover acupuncture? Because you'll probably be able to get off your meds if you try it."
Um, I don't remember asking you for your opinion. But nonetheless, this statement bugged me, and I couldn't quite place my finger on it. This morning, as I was making my coffee, it occurred to me: why do people assume that psych meds are somehow optional?
I guess you could say that insulin is "optional" for diabetics, or that rifampin and isoniazid are "optional" for people with tuberculosis. Let's not talk about chemo for cancer, either! Sheesh.
I understand that not everyone likes, or wants, to use psychotropic meds. And that's fine with me. However, I find them necessary. I've tried to stop taking them, and I end up a suicidal anxious mess, practically unable to leave my bed. I don't really like having to take meds. They're expensive, they do have side effects, it's a pain to remember to take them, and I really don't like needing them.
But I do.
I'm trying to tell myself that there is nothing wrong with psych meds. As much as I don't like having to take them, I'm eternally grateful that these meds exist. Waking up to an almost unthinkable sense of foreboding and dread is not the way I want to live. Although I rarely wake up happy and chipper (I'm NOT a morning person!), my meds let me face the day. To me, they are necessary, and likely always will be.