Do you spend time on a regular basis wondering at just how many days Ed has tried to take you down -- without success?!?
Do you think about all the different ways Ed has tried to get to you, to get through to you, and all the creative maneuvers you have had to create and execute in order to stay ahead of him in the fight to claim your life?
Thinking about - pondering - this marvelous, miraculous journey you have taken to avoid Ed's clutches is the pathway to breeding a champion fighter out of raw talent.
When you start to spend more time thinking to yourself, "Man - dodged another one of Ed's lies today - go me!" than "what a loser I am - still with Ed after all these years" then the quality of your recovery effort and progress will shift.
This is because you are realizing you are trustworthy, and you are giving yourself credit where credit is due, and trusting yourself for more of the same.
If you do not trust yourself, you will be forever uncertain of where and how you will end up if you ever manage to outrun Ed for good.
So you won't run fast enough, far enough, or for long enough to ever truly leave him behind.
If you trust yourself, you will run when running is necessary, and stand and fight when it is necessary, and trust yourself to know the difference and do whatever it takes to take Ed down once and for all.