I was just wondering what ways you found helpful in coping with your bulimia. I'm really struggling now and could use any help!
Before I was really "ready" to start the recovery process by working with my coach, it was helpful spiritually to at least stop judging myself as such a disgusting disaster and accept that just because I had an unhealthy coping mechanism, it didn't mean I was a complete failure in life or that I wouldn't be able to still accomplish some amazing, wonderful things in my life. I chose to do as much as I could and live life as much as I could, even with my limiting "condition." That helped a lot. That attitude kept me from sinking into a paralyzing depressing and hopelessness. I went back to school, I kept decent jobs, I ate as well as I could, I took care of myself as well as I could. I seized opportunities for adventure and friendship and love to the extent that I could. When I couldn't, I was sad, but I would forgive myself and keep getting up and trying again.
However, I wish someone would have told me back then what I’m always writing in my blog: you’re never going to get better with your current life skill set and knowledge. Your ways of interpreting, thinking and reacting are what got you in this mess. Maybe it will take years, but you need to get started today on learning and trying out alternatives. Take baby steps. Get your butt to the library and start reading some good spiritual (I don’t mean religious) stuff. You need a textbook for life – get out and start looking for it. Start with the book list on the right side of my blog. Talk about what you’re reading and trying out – share it with others. Blog about it!
I hope you're doing as well as you can and trying to forgive yourself for not being perfect.