Why do we get our hopes up for something we really want, when we know it probably won't happen? I was all set to go to San Diego next month, I put the money aside and was excited about seeing Mi Amore, and actually finishing my novel, while he was at work. Now he's too busy, I understand, work comes first and there is no point in going over if he's in LA most of the week. Now I don't know what to do with myself! I'd love to get away from here for a bit, but I know I should save the money as well. Oh I guess I'll wait till pay day, then decide.
Yesterday I managed to get down to the local health centre and register with a doctor, something I should have done 8 months ago! It took a swollen gland at the top of my neck/under my jaw to spur me on! It's no doubt from purging but it shocked me enough to do something. It's a 2 week wait to see the practice nurse for a general check up (I'm toying with the idea of mentioning the ED) but at least it's done.
It's my contract night (C/N) with work today, bascially I'm on call if someone is sick or on holiday and it's likely I'll be going back to Fort William; they'll tell me in about 2 hours. The way I see it, if I'm working there is more chance of tips and keeping my mind occupied. It's time to read and write, if I'm not too tired; and the views up there are stunning.
Better go get ready, just incase.
Why do we get our hopes up for something we really want, when we know it probably won't happen? I was all set to go to San Diego next month, I put the money aside and was excited about seeing Mi Amore, and actually finishing my novel, while he was at work. Now he's too busy, I understand, work comes first and there is no point in going over if he's in LA most of the week. Now I don't know what to do with myself! I'd love to get away from here for a bit, but I know I should save the money as well. Oh I guess I'll wait till pay day, then decide.
Yesterday I managed to get down to the local health centre and register with a doctor, something I should have done 8 months ago! It took a swollen gland at the top of my neck/under my jaw to spur me on! It's no doubt from purging but it shocked me enough to do something. It's a 2 week wait to see the practice nurse for a general check up (I'm toying with the idea of mentioning the ED) but at least it's done.
It's my contract night (C/N) with work today, bascially I'm on call if someone is sick or on holiday and it's likely I'll be going back to Fort William; they'll tell me in about 2 hours. The way I see it, if I'm working there is more chance of tips and keeping my mind occupied. It's time to read and write, if I'm not too tired; and the views up there are stunning.
Better go get ready, just incase.