My parents came to visit this weekend. We took them to a local restaurant where I indulged in Prime Rib, Twice-Baked Potato and Suffed Mushroom Caps. Of course, it was about 2 oz of the beef, 3 bites of potatoes and maybe a 1-sq.-inch piece of mushroom. But, damn, it was delicious. I don't think I've ever had a celebratory meal that tasted to good.
Today my dad and Rose stayed home to watch football while my mom and I went shopping. Casual Corner Annex is going of business and everything is 60% off. I'm wearing size 22 pants for work, so I thought I'd try on a 20. Fit perfect. So I didn't buy any. Why bother if they are going to be too big in another few weeks? Instead, I tried on size 18 pants. I actually got them buttoned. Not ready to wear in public yet. But they had these cool side snaps in the waistband to let you adjust the waist. Bought those in an 18 and a 16. And I picked up a few turtlenecks in a 1x. I also found this hot , knee-length black blazer in an 18. Damn, I looked fanfuckingtastic. But I couldn't justify even $44.
The coolest thing about the day? My mom wears a size 16. And I'm about 6 weeks away from that. I have always felt like I've not lived up to her expectations when it came to weightloss. I really don't care anymore (and haven't for most of my adult life). Now the fact that pretty soon I could wear her clothes is starting to freak her out. I could tell she was a bit weird about it. (Strange how people always expect you to be the fattest on in the family.)
It felt wonderful to try on clothes. And it was so hope-filled. I've never stood at the door of a new year and felt anticipation--or even lack of dread--about losing/gaining weight. I know it's going to happen. I know that I will not be the same person next year on this day as I am right now. I also know there'll be hard work required of me, and there'll probably be a bunch of disappointment along the way. But I've never felt so capable of change and growth (in spirit, not size) as a I do right now.
So to all my sassy sisters, fellow WLS souls and those who are trying in any way to conquer the beast of burden called obesity, here's to a wonderful new you, too!