I was sorting through some of the links I had bookmarked on my Twitter page this morning, trying to use the current lag in work to get some other stuff done. Like looking at random web pages I had one marked as "potentially useful."
Which is how I found this blog post from PsychCentral on creativity and work. The blogger quotes author Elizabeth Glibert Always, at the end of the day, the important thing is only and always that: Get back to work. This is a path for the courageous and the faithful. You must find another reason to work, other than the desire for success or recognition. It must come from another place.
It has a lot to do with writing and the creative life, yes. But it also has a lot to do with recovery.
Many of us start down the road to recovery (if not dragged there, kicking and screaming) mostly because we want to feel better. The ED is making us miserable. This isn't to say we're especially keen to stop ED behaviors--an eating disorder does have an adaptive function , after all--but we generally get sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Which makes for a rude awakening when we realize just how miserable recovery is. It's why many of us find we need the support of a hospital, treatment center, and family/friends. Recovery is making us even more miserable than the ED (as if that were even possible!), so clearly our goal of feeling better was misguided. So we piss and moan, something I'm rather expert at.
Get back to work.
I love writing, yes, but the process isn't always pleasant. I regularly sit down in front of my computer feeling like my brains have turned to spaghetti and I have totally forgotten how to put a simple sentence together. The only solution is to start writing. Get back to work.
Nor does recovery always seem intuitive or natural or even always more pleasant than the eating disorder. I've fantasized about "taking a break" from recovery or trying to get people to understand just how hard recovery is. But easy isn't the point, nor is other's recognition. The hard work of recovery doesn't stop with a pat on the back or even a trip and fall.
At the end of the day, there's only one thing left for us to do: get back to work.